knightsilver

I do go to the gym and get outside more. Im trying to restart a project, writing and artwork, for a novel and storybaord. But Im having trouble starting and relaxing enough to get started. Its been since high school, and what got me through high school. Ive been so burnt/stressed out, and sick of insensitive/non-understanding members & bishops, these past few years. Just trying to reconnect, this generation has gotten too soft, insensitive, and double standards and Im sick. Im just now starting to understand what it takes to make my marriage work. Its been a hard learning cure, but it my family and wife can and will understand me, so can others..... Its time for members and some leadership to grow up, not all of us have things just handed to us, or grow. Because its hard, eazy is the way of the darkside. Grow up Americans......

I just cant do 150/10% anymore. Im tired and cant even sleep good, and havent slept more than 3-4 hours in close to three years now.....And Im just to "Deal with it" Id just about do anything to get 8-9 hours of good sleep, and be happy with just being held and respected....

The wife refuse to, do her part, to take care of her self physically or help our relationship work, I feel, and I cant keep pulling 110% . She is physically disabled. There is more she can do, thats she is physically able to do, but wont. Im pretty much do 99% of her Care giving. When, I should only be doing 10% She has been emotionally and physically distant from me, for many years. And yes, I do use "I" and "I feel" when asking her for my needs being met. And her reasoning for not being emotionally and physically towards me is, "Becuae, I fuss" bout her not being, emotionally and physically. After a few years, and now Im starting to hold my cool. But didnt start out loosing my cool. But now, Im fighting depression, and have been working with a therapist. She says, Im holding my own just fine, and that I just need to make a decision on staying with the wife, and accept that Im not going to get my needs met from wife or get a divorce. Im now to the point of not wanting to handle the emotional side of taking care of her physical(thats not the sexual stuff) needs, ontop of her having an attitude problem. My bishop isnt much help, just tells me to deal with it, that she needs me. I have needs too, that havent been met for more tha a few years, I just cant give and give and give like I have been, something needs to give and it isnt going to be me. Ive workied hard all this life emotionally, physically, kept a job, been true to the gospel to fail or giveup now. Ive gotten to the point, "This is about me, control myself, and starting to put me first" but like a good boy, I do what Im told. We've already been seperated twice, and I cant mess up again and I wont, but its to the point I want to loose control, and finding someone that will listen and give me what I havent had for a long time. Its needs to be 110/110%, not 150%/10%. The only thing thats kept me from messing up, is my own Eternal Glory, and that my current wife isnt even worth me screwing that up........

no. Weve also tried counseling more than a few times(at least 7-12 different times). Its OK for a month ot two, than back to her attitude. SHe's only nice when Im passive.

Im pretty close to sending the wife packing. Been married over 10 years. That first 10 years I was passive, just to avoid fights. Wife has always had an attitude, and its feels like Im married to a 14 year old. Till last summer, I always put her needs before mine & passive. It always felt that I did 150% of the relationship, and talking, her needs, keeping a job and the house stuff. All she dose is watch TV, whens she's not in school. About the only time I get her attention, is when she's needing something. She always gets an attitude when I ask her to do or not do something, most of the time, Im calm and relaxed about it, till she gets an attitude. Ive never liked or been patient with people that are controlling, double standard or have an attitude or lazyness problem. She has never showd restraint with her attitude, its always been her way or the highway. Why should I continue to do for her, when she dosent do for me, its been a long time since I felt wanted, not just relied on or needed. Im burnt out and feel lonely for the past 10 years, and its getting to me..........

Thought he was asking for specific models and sizes and at a budget, not an avalanche of information. Im sure Iggy knows how to Google and pull up reviews, he was asking specifics and at a budget and asking personal recommendations on camera's....

He mentioned something about the camera shape? Ive been looking at a Canon on the Egg for a $140 but its small and sqaure: Newegg.com - Canon PowerShot A1100 IS Green 12.1 MP 2.5" 115K LCD 4X Optical Zoom Digital Camera

Newegg.com - Nikon COOLPIX L100 Matte Black 10.0 MP 3.0" 230K LCD 15X Optical Zoom Digital Camera Take Newegg reviews with a grain of salt, just know what your looking for. Feel free to PM me.... shane c.

Thats pretty good, Im just now trying to start drawing agin. Send him this link to this thread. Never hurts to have more than one or two artest.

well I cant sing. But I still should try.

We all have gifts that we all need to develop and then give of of time to eachother to hepl eachother grow. thanks, shane c.

Any more musicians? Been wanting to mix classical and rock. thanks, shane c.

Thanks Skalen. Ill PM ya'll with my email and please email back. It will be a few months before I get my webpage up and going. a big thanks, shane c.

thanks guys and gals....

Thanks guys... (Anyone) When was the last time ya saw a good adventure? thanks, shane C.