I am very scared right now. My husband and I were married in the Salt Lake temple just five months ago. About two months ago I came home early and caught my husband looking at Internet pornography. He felt terrible and promised not to do it again. I knew he'd had a problem with it in his youth, but he told me this problem was as recent as five months before we married. know the nature of addiction and I know that relapsing was inevitable, so we started going to a sex addiction group therapy course taught by an old mission president that I trust very much.
Anyway, last night he confessed to me that he'd looked again at the pornography several more times since the first time I caught him. He volunteered the information which is a big step forward, but my reaction was still to break down and cry. I am 7 weeks pregnant with our first child and I feel so trapped right now. I love him with all my heart, but I refuse to be in a marriage with a porn-addicted husband the rest of my life. I feel terrible for wishing I wasn't pregnant right now, but I do. It would have been better for us to fix this problem first before starting a family. I don't know how to cope with this right now. I put a password on the computer today, so I hope that helps take the temptation away for awhile. But I don't know how to trust him again. I feel cheated on. I know his addiction is not about me, but it doesn't take the heartbreak away. I want to have a family where the Spirit can dwell and he can lead us as a righteous priesthood holder, but those dreams have been crushed right now.
Is there ANYONE out there with some success story???? Has anyone beat this problem????