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A celestial marriage takes both a husband and a wife.  From what you said it doesn't sound like you had a righteous and willing partner wanting to be and remain sealed to you. 
But regardless of what happened in the past, rest assured that there is great cause for hope in all blessings!!   It is not too late.  Even if you don't find and marry someone in this life, it's not too late.  The plan of salvation allows for all blessings to the faithful!  This is one of the great truths of the restoration.  Jesus Christ is your hope!!   As you seek Jesus, all blessings remain available to you because of Him.
Here are some quotes from a recent Liahona article ( https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/liahona/2023/06/06-acting-in-faith-while-hoping-for-marriage-8-ideas-for-adults-who-are-single?lang=eng )
 
 
 
 
The Lord intends to bless you with a celestial marriage and exaltation.  Have faith and hope in Jesus's power and ability to provide all blessings to the faithful, even if you don't understand the how.  Live according to that faith.  Here's one last quote:
 
 
=== Edit to add this from Revelation 21:2-4
 

A celestial marriage takes both a husband and a wife.  From what you said it doesn't sound like you had a righteous and willing partner wanting to be and remain sealed to you. 
But regardless of what happened in the past, rest assured that there is great cause for hope in all blessings!!   It is not too late.  Even if you don't find and marry someone in this life, it's not too late.  The plan of salvation allows for all blessings to the faithful!  This is one of the great truths of the restoration.  Jesus Christ is your hope!!   As you seek Jesus, all blessings remain available to you because of Him.
Here are some quotes from a recent Liahona article ( https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/liahona/2023/06/06-acting-in-faith-while-hoping-for-marriage-8-ideas-for-adults-who-are-single?lang=eng )
 
 
 
 
The Lord intends to bless you with a celestial marriage and exaltation.  Have faith and hope in Jesus's power and ability to provide all blessings to the faithful, even if you don't understand the how.  Live according to that faith.  Here's one last quote:
 
 
=== Edit to add this from Revelation 21:2-4
 

I hear that.  I've got 3 people in roughly your situation.   A divorced guy in his 40's, a divorced guy in his 50's, and a widowed guy in his 70's.   I've walked with all 3 and heard their stories of dating.  They all decided to try dating.  Both online and local.  They all have a year of "dating horror stories".  Two are now married.  One via dating site and multiple trips between states.  One found someone a couple wards away.  One is, to put it diplomatically, way too unique to find the right match.   But holy heck did they all end up with some weird stories.  
My guy in his '40's lives in CO, found someone in ID, they flew back and forth to date for 6 months, then got married.  3 months after the marriage, they moved to VT to start fresh.  It was weird, but it seems to be working.
My guy in his '70's was terribly lonely after his wife's passing, but did indeed finally find a widow with a similar story, and they're going to be together for the rest of life, which is enough for them.  
 
If you've got energy, I'd say keep trying.  Mind your private data.  Trust nobody at first, use dating as a way to test and develop trust in each other.   "It's good to meet you, glad to find out you're not a scammer from another country."  
The numbers are in your favor.  There are far more single women in their '50's and '60's yearning for a temple marriage, then men.  They are out there to be found.

In this case both.  Teaching is good.  But that doesn't preclude punishment.  It's interesting that Korihor brought on his own punishments (he asked for a sign and he acknowledged "I brought this great curse upon me").  Later he chose to go be with the wicked Zoramites where he was killed.
I think another question to ask is, "Did Korihor knowingly do anything wrong or was it innocent ignorance?"
Alma 30:53 says
At the beginning he knew it wasn't true, but he taught it anyway.  (The word "insomuch" can mean "to such an extent that".)  He was told to teach a lie, and he resisted the truth and taught it and continued until his success caused him to start to believe. 
What were his motivations?  Perhaps he enjoyed persuading people, or perhaps he enjoyed the notoriety he gained.  Or perhaps it was something even more sinister.  Korihor admitted in vs 52 "I always knew that there was a God". 
Even after being taught and acknowledging his wrongs Alma says to him
So it wasn't a simple misunderstanding.  And, he wasn't changed.  If Korihor had the chance, he'd revert to teaching falsehoods again.

A celestial marriage takes both a husband and a wife.  From what you said it doesn't sound like you had a righteous and willing partner wanting to be and remain sealed to you. 
But regardless of what happened in the past, rest assured that there is great cause for hope in all blessings!!   It is not too late.  Even if you don't find and marry someone in this life, it's not too late.  The plan of salvation allows for all blessings to the faithful!  This is one of the great truths of the restoration.  Jesus Christ is your hope!!   As you seek Jesus, all blessings remain available to you because of Him.
Here are some quotes from a recent Liahona article ( https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/liahona/2023/06/06-acting-in-faith-while-hoping-for-marriage-8-ideas-for-adults-who-are-single?lang=eng )
 
 
 
 
The Lord intends to bless you with a celestial marriage and exaltation.  Have faith and hope in Jesus's power and ability to provide all blessings to the faithful, even if you don't understand the how.  Live according to that faith.  Here's one last quote:
 
 
=== Edit to add this from Revelation 21:2-4
 

And that God is good, and that he loves you.

If failure were enough to deny us the blessings of exaltation, none of us would ever be exalted.  Repent as needed, continue faithful to the end.  Despair is Satan's tool.  Don't give in to it.  Find hope in Christ.

Screwed up the one and only good relationship I've ever had because I was dealing with an undiagnosed mental health condition and it was affecting my judgement. 
Am now staring down 40 with zero prospects and no means to support anyone anyway due to how little I make at the local-level newspapers I'm with. 
All I can do is trust that whatever will happen will happen. 

A celestial marriage takes both a husband and a wife.  From what you said it doesn't sound like you had a righteous and willing partner wanting to be and remain sealed to you. 
But regardless of what happened in the past, rest assured that there is great cause for hope in all blessings!!   It is not too late.  Even if you don't find and marry someone in this life, it's not too late.  The plan of salvation allows for all blessings to the faithful!  This is one of the great truths of the restoration.  Jesus Christ is your hope!!   As you seek Jesus, all blessings remain available to you because of Him.
Here are some quotes from a recent Liahona article ( https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/liahona/2023/06/06-acting-in-faith-while-hoping-for-marriage-8-ideas-for-adults-who-are-single?lang=eng )
 
 
 
 
The Lord intends to bless you with a celestial marriage and exaltation.  Have faith and hope in Jesus's power and ability to provide all blessings to the faithful, even if you don't understand the how.  Live according to that faith.  Here's one last quote:
 
 
=== Edit to add this from Revelation 21:2-4
 

That's definitely something we can't answer.  That's a question for your local leaders who have stewardship over you.

Congratulations on continuing your efforts to overcome, @Some_one!  As @pam said, this is really something you need to discuss with your bishop.  Please don't be afraid - he has keys that can help you in your struggle.

In this case both.  Teaching is good.  But that doesn't preclude punishment.  It's interesting that Korihor brought on his own punishments (he asked for a sign and he acknowledged "I brought this great curse upon me").  Later he chose to go be with the wicked Zoramites where he was killed.
I think another question to ask is, "Did Korihor knowingly do anything wrong or was it innocent ignorance?"
Alma 30:53 says
At the beginning he knew it wasn't true, but he taught it anyway.  (The word "insomuch" can mean "to such an extent that".)  He was told to teach a lie, and he resisted the truth and taught it and continued until his success caused him to start to believe. 
What were his motivations?  Perhaps he enjoyed persuading people, or perhaps he enjoyed the notoriety he gained.  Or perhaps it was something even more sinister.  Korihor admitted in vs 52 "I always knew that there was a God". 
Even after being taught and acknowledging his wrongs Alma says to him
So it wasn't a simple misunderstanding.  And, he wasn't changed.  If Korihor had the chance, he'd revert to teaching falsehoods again.

In this case both.  Teaching is good.  But that doesn't preclude punishment.  It's interesting that Korihor brought on his own punishments (he asked for a sign and he acknowledged "I brought this great curse upon me").  Later he chose to go be with the wicked Zoramites where he was killed.
I think another question to ask is, "Did Korihor knowingly do anything wrong or was it innocent ignorance?"
Alma 30:53 says
At the beginning he knew it wasn't true, but he taught it anyway.  (The word "insomuch" can mean "to such an extent that".)  He was told to teach a lie, and he resisted the truth and taught it and continued until his success caused him to start to believe. 
What were his motivations?  Perhaps he enjoyed persuading people, or perhaps he enjoyed the notoriety he gained.  Or perhaps it was something even more sinister.  Korihor admitted in vs 52 "I always knew that there was a God". 
Even after being taught and acknowledging his wrongs Alma says to him
So it wasn't a simple misunderstanding.  And, he wasn't changed.  If Korihor had the chance, he'd revert to teaching falsehoods again.

Yeah, but it amount to the same thing.
I'm a firm believer in the Lord doesn't lie. But he also doesn't explain everything to us in detail, knowing we cannot understand. My point was simply that the strong feeling that we don't need to have another child may well be a "for now" thing, whether it's implicit in the feeling or not.
In some ways it's like going to a service project, feeling that the service was good, acceptable to the Lord, and it was time to go home now, and translating that feeling to "you never have to serve again"?
The Spirit may communicate decisions to us. The simple decision is to not have more children. But we take that feeling and translate it to "for the rest of our life!" Which may or may not have anything to do with what we were inspired for.
Another example might be something like... we come to a fork in the road. We pray to the Lord and ask which path is safer. We receive a clear impression to go left. Then we get into all sorts of danger and trauma. Others who took the right path tell us how safe and easy it was. So what's up with that? Well... first... the direction may not have been related to the mortal concerns we have. He may not have said, "the left is safer." He may have just said, "go left". We injected the safer idea. But...even more important... What does "safer" mean? We may have been in more physical peril. But maybe the safety with which the Lord was concerned was our soul's? Perhaps the physical trials protected us spiritually. We see examples of that sort of thing all over the place in scripture and church history. (Zion's camp, for example.)
So that's what I'm really getting at.
I don't believe the Lord tricks us through deception. But he doesn't reveal everything to us either. He says to trust Him and move forward.
Another more difficult example to explain (this one is based on real life): A pregnant sister in my ward testified that she had received revelation that she was going to have a little girl. Then....she had a boy. Literally the opposite of what she received revelation would be the case happened. My takeaway....she didn't actually receive revelation. She just had a thought and presumed it was revelation when it wasn't. But...I don't really know. I don't want to poo-poo other's spiritual experiences as invalid.*
*Well...in some cases I do. For example, another individual I knew said that they received revelation in the Celestial room in the temple that the church wasn't true.

Or maybe it was "you're done" without the "for now" because they were to feel complete and content and treat their 3 that way.  If the Lord also told them "for now" things wouldn't feel the same, which might influence their relationships and appreciation for their current state.
With that feeling, they didn't need to wonder or worry if they'd have another baby.  They could be content.  The spacing was good and perhaps necessary for their children.
If they wanted or expected another child for a couple of years there likely would have been stress and heartache until the baby finally arrived. Many parents and many who long to be parents have felt that hardship.  It's nice they didn't have to go through that.
After a season of being a family of 5, it became time to advance to another stage of life and you were blessed with another. Congrats!

Or maybe it was "you're done" without the "for now" because they were to feel complete and content and treat their 3 that way.  If the Lord also told them "for now" things wouldn't feel the same, which might influence their relationships and appreciation for their current state.
With that feeling, they didn't need to wonder or worry if they'd have another baby.  They could be content.  The spacing was good and perhaps necessary for their children.
If they wanted or expected another child for a couple of years there likely would have been stress and heartache until the baby finally arrived. Many parents and many who long to be parents have felt that hardship.  It's nice they didn't have to go through that.
After a season of being a family of 5, it became time to advance to another stage of life and you were blessed with another. Congrats!

@NeedleinA  This is late, but my area (in the South) also had a significant number of members choosing to not renew recommends.  Executive secretaries and ward clerks sent reminders and tried to schedule appointments and a surprising (to me) number of people still chose not to renew their recommends.
As I browsed through this thread I didn't notice any mention of Elder Rasband's Oct 2020 general conference talk, https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2020/10/16rasband?lang=eng.  He said:
He also reminded us of Howard W. Hunter teaching that we should hold and be worthy of a recommend even if we don't have access to a temple.  He shared:
 
Aside from reminding members and trying to schedule appointments, another approach we took was to remind them of the Lord's teachings using this talk by Elder Rasband.  But I'm not sure it had much affect.

I've been interviewed dozens of times and in many places, and I've never heard of an interviewer doing this.  That's weird.  And in my mind, it's out of line.  The handbook (section 25.1.1) says:
 

I've been interviewed dozens of times and in many places, and I've never heard of an interviewer doing this.  That's weird.  And in my mind, it's out of line.  The handbook (section 25.1.1) says:
 

@NeedleinA  This is late, but my area (in the South) also had a significant number of members choosing to not renew recommends.  Executive secretaries and ward clerks sent reminders and tried to schedule appointments and a surprising (to me) number of people still chose not to renew their recommends.
As I browsed through this thread I didn't notice any mention of Elder Rasband's Oct 2020 general conference talk, https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2020/10/16rasband?lang=eng.  He said:
He also reminded us of Howard W. Hunter teaching that we should hold and be worthy of a recommend even if we don't have access to a temple.  He shared:
 
Aside from reminding members and trying to schedule appointments, another approach we took was to remind them of the Lord's teachings using this talk by Elder Rasband.  But I'm not sure it had much affect.

@NeedleinA  This is late, but my area (in the South) also had a significant number of members choosing to not renew recommends.  Executive secretaries and ward clerks sent reminders and tried to schedule appointments and a surprising (to me) number of people still chose not to renew their recommends.
As I browsed through this thread I didn't notice any mention of Elder Rasband's Oct 2020 general conference talk, https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/general-conference/2020/10/16rasband?lang=eng.  He said:
He also reminded us of Howard W. Hunter teaching that we should hold and be worthy of a recommend even if we don't have access to a temple.  He shared:
 
Aside from reminding members and trying to schedule appointments, another approach we took was to remind them of the Lord's teachings using this talk by Elder Rasband.  But I'm not sure it had much affect.

On my second trip there I rented a car.  You don't need (or want) one while visiting things in Jerusalem; just use taxis.  I used the rental car for day trips to remote sites (e.g. Nazareth, Mt. Tabor, Galilee and surrounding sites, both Jordan River sites, the Dead Sea, Masada, Qumran caves, etc.).  Renting a car allowed me to do and see a lot more in less days, and for less money.  I felt confident doing things on my own and renting a car since I'd been there before.
For someone that's never been there before and doesn't want the pricey cost of a fully arranged multi-day tour, I'd suggest arranging your own flight to Israel, take a sherut (a shared taxi minivan/small bus that's cheap) to Jerusalem, and schedule a few day trips with Israeli tour companies for the first part of your trip.  They'll pick you up at your hotel and take you back at the end.  You could take day trips to cover Bethlehem (cant' drive rental car there anyway), Dead Sea, Nazareth, Galilee, Jerusalem, etc.  Then, leave a few extra days to see more of Jerusalem on your own that your guided day tour didn't cover.  You can take a sherut back to the airport (you call ahead to arrange it and they pick you up at hotel).
Things a guided Jerusalem day tour might not cover yet you should see include the Garden Tomb, Gethsemane, going up on the temple mount, City of David and Hezekiah's tunnel, Pool of Bethesda, and western wall excavations site.  (Schedule the City of David tour through their website beforehand, no need for a third party tour group. This was a favorite.  At the end of the tunnel you end up at the Pool of Siloam where Jesus sent the man born blind in John 9.  There are other tours you can schedule, like western wall tunnels, but I liked City of David best.)
If you're more adventurous, you could take some guided day tours on the front end of your trip, and then see Jerusalem some more on your own, and then rent a car for the last few days to see remote things you didn't use a tour group for.

I have a friend who served as a Bishop and then as a counselor in our stake presidency who had been divorced.
I know of a stake president (my brother's stake) who had been divorced.
 

I made a trip to Israel last year (about this time).  I thought it would be a semi-interesting experience.   I did not think the trip to be all that important (for anyone).  I found the experience much more than I ever dreamed.  Like @Jane_Doe – I thought the trip would be somewhat of a farce.  I was aware that Constantine sent his mother to Jerusalem to determine where important Christian events took place.  It was obvious that her trip was more political than rational.  Instead she picked the prominent Pagan shrines and declared them sacred Christian holy places.  
We should also remember that in 73 AD. the Romans destroyed Jerusalem and plowed the ground so that one stone did not remain on top of another – all that was left was below ground foundations and previously berried structures.  Anciently it was very common to build new over the foundations of the old.  What is there today are things built after the Roman destruction.  The oldest stuff is Pagan – followed by some some early Christian modifications – along with stuff from various conquerors down to our present day.
For me some of the highlights:
#1. Seeing Israel for myself and realizing that all the pictures and other references I thought I understood were so very different from the “truth” of being there.
#2. Immersing myself in the geology of the past.  For example, I was taught in my youth the expert art of using a sling (not the twirling around thing but the rapid set and release used in ancient combat).  I took the opportunity to enter the same valley in which David met against Goliath, picked some perfect stones from the same dry river bed where David picked his stones and slung 5 stones at a target about 75 yards away. 
I also visited near the place where Jesus was baptized.  It could not be the same spot because the Jordan river is smaller than the Jordan river in Utah and wanders (changing it wandering path yearly) to the Dead Sea.  But realizing that where Jesus was baptized was in the same area-place where Joshua (The Hebrew name of Jesus) brought the “children” of Israel and where he (Joshua) took them into the Jordan River to be cleansed (baptized) before entering the “promised land”.
So many times, I was touched by the spirit in ways and for things I did not at all expect.  Perhaps the most profound was Gethsemane (not the traditional place near the bottom of the mount of Olives but the place a Latter-day Prophet testified was near where Jesus prayed and took upon him the burden of our sins.
#3.  Talking to Jews in Jerusalem – participating in a bar mitzvah at the western wall.
#4.  Talking to Muslims that have lived in Palestine for many generations.
#5. Learning why it is impossible to purchase a cheeseburger in Israel.
#6. Eating traditional foods (both Islamic and Jewish)
#7. Spending a Sabbath (Saturday) in Israel.
#8. Meeting with the Latter-day Saints that live in Israel.
#9 Ridding on a modern boat of ancient design on Galilee (which is not a sea but a lake about the size of Bear lake in Utah and Idaho.)  I also ate a fish caught in Galilee and prepared in the ancient style (likely like the fish that fed the 5,000).
All in all – my trip was much more and many times over what I expected – Spiritually far more that I could have dreamed.  I would return again and plan to return – I am not so concerned about safety.   I believe I am much safer now than Jesus or the apostles ever were in Jerusalem.
 
The Traveler

- It also teaches why mortality and its problems are necessary and ultimately good for us.
- It also teaches about work.  I heard the story dozens of times before it became significant to me that there was work done by Adam and Eve in the garden BEFORE the fall.
- We're also taught the importance of marriage and staying by your partner's side when tough times hit.  This is very important, yet I didn't consider the Garden and Fall story a marriage sermon for quite a long time.  I do now, every time I hear it.
Being able to add additional bullet points with new truths isn't the only wonderful thing about studying the story repetitively.  My actual level of understanding of fundamental truths has deepened significantly.  Gaining a correct and deep understanding of doctrine is very powerful.