I was really busy for awhile with work, just getting back to this now...
Thanks for all of the advice. Things have been up and down I guess. We were solid for almost a month, then one day we made the mistake of going to my house late at night to help somebody unload some furniture. Well, my house is where we tend to mess up, being from a non-lds family myself. As a result of that I missed out on my chance to be given the Melchezidek priesthood. Hopefully I'll be worthy again by April when we have a priesthood conference or whatever it is. We've recomitted to it, this time we'll avoid my house.
I really like the analogy of a diet. The problem for me is that, as arrogant as the proceeding my sound, I am a very disciplined person. I work at a gym, do cardio every morning, eat incredibly well, and train until I nearly puke/pass out. I've spent time in other parts of the world training with monks and trained here with professional fighters and coaches. My entire life I have prided myself on having a solid work ethic and the discipline to accomplish whatever I decide to do. Discipline is the basis of who I am. Yet, I continue to fail at this one thing, and that tends to invoke my 'all or nothing' mentality. Once I fail I beat myself up over it and have trouble going back to it, which is why my discipline is seeming to be a problem. It really is an issue of my ego.
Right now I need to do a couple of things. One is to follow some of the excellent advice that you have all given to me. The other is to work on getting back to the part of my life which brought me to the church in the first place. Working at the gym has stopped me from doing martial arts because of the schedule... the job isn't quite worth the stress of it anyway. Basically, I was baptized by my martial arts instructor, so I feel like if I want to continue to progress as a son of God should, I need to get back to walking my own path.
Hopefully I can find a steady day job so I can train again.