girlzof3

Sorry I am not dash77 and I don't even know what OP means. But I guess you have to take my word on that. I am in no way going to use this forum's responses to make my decision. The reason why I posted in the first place is to hopefully get an idea about how many other members struggle with this same issue and how they have resolved it - either way. This is not something that is talked about in church. There is no official church position. This is something that is mostly kept quiet or whispered about. What seems black and white is not. Big fake stripper boobs = bad. But flat chested women who want normal size ones? All of a sudden you don't know and that line between vanity and humility starts to get blurred. Which is what I am struggling with. I have talked with my husband about it numerous times. I have also prayed about it and will continue to do so. I have yet to resolve this issue within myself. I also know that I do tend to over-analyze and worry too much about things. So for me, finding people that are struggling or have struggled with the same issues helps me with my perspective. Make sense?

Thank you for all your responses. I really do appreciate it. What would Christ want me to do? I see it as 2 ways. 1) Not do it. Right. Just love myself exactly how I am. And we can get into the whole make-up etc. argument but that has happened way to many times. 2) He really could care less. Let me tell you the circle that repeats itself. I decide that I just need to deal with what I don't have and make the best of it, because wanting breasts is worldly and I am trying to find that fine line between being worldly and wanting to look nice. This is what I have tried and considered. For me, it is important that I look like I have something on top, because yes most women have breasts and I am a woman. This is not all that makes me feel like a women, just a part of it. So abandoning the bra and going completely flat chested, with no curves on top is not an option. And I dare to say there are not many women who would do this. So... what have I done? I have tried on so many bras I can't count. When you have nothing to pad then I end up with air between the bra and my chest. That doesn't work. I have bought several specialty bras online for women with small busts. They either don't fit because I have nothing to fit. Or if they actually fit, it looks like I am not wearing a bra because they are so small. And then we go back up to the top where I started. If I get one that fits then I have had problems with them riding up and I end up fidgeting with it all day, which is highly annoying. So what am I doing now? I bought a size A bra and then I am putting large inserts, like the kind that people that have had mastectomies buy, to fill it out. This is the best option that I have come up with. However, they move around and I am always wondering if they are going to shift to an unnatural position. I worry about them falling out. And during the heat when I get hot and sweaty this set-up is not a good environment for my stretched out skin if you know what I mean. So I tolerate this for a few months, get frustrated and then start asking myself the same questions over again. Am I really making too big a deal about this? If I am o.k. wearing large "fakies" on the outside why is it not o.k. on the inside.? I am not a stripper, nor do I want anything close to big boobs. I just want to fill out a bra and never have to worry about it again. And yes, this isn't about pleasing my husband. He honestly doesn't care. It's about me wanting my body back and looking like a woman again.

Let me tell you my story. I am 35 and have breastfed 4 babies. I am 5’6″ and weigh 125 pounds. I am an active LDS member. I look great and I feel great. I exercise and have worked to get off all my pregnancy fat. Before I had babies I was almost an A and was o.k. with it. Since nursing I have nothing on top except for stretched out skin. That is it. I cannot fill a bra period. When I wear a swimsuit I am constantly looking down to see if it will go concave on me. I have also had problems with my bras staying down in the front. They tend to ride up because I have nothing to hold it down. It really bothers me. I would love to go in and get a size B put in. The size I was when I was nursing. I have struggled with this decision for several years, thinking that as an active member of the church that this is too worldly. I have also read the talk from Elder Holland to the Young Women of the church. And yet I still wonder. I would love to actually fill out my shirts, swimsuits and bras. And yes, for me having breasts would make me feel more like a woman. For me, being able to walk into any bra department and actually fit into a bra would be fantastic. And yet I can’t make the decision. I have consulted with a plastic surgeon and even picked out a size B. I am a naturally shy person and would never wear tight, skimpy or immodest clothing to show them off. Heck, I only want a B. So where do I fit in? Am I being worldly and should I just learn to love having no chest at all or does a completely flat chest justify me getting relatively small boobs put in. I personally don't understand women that have something on top and go in to get them bigger and I would not do that. But is it worldly to just want something on top? To me, I definitely feel “alone" with this issue, which is why I am posting. Sure there are plenty of small/no busted women in the church, but how many feel like me? This is not something I can just walk up to women and ask them how they feel about their chest size. Before I nursed babies I would have never thought about breast augmentation. And to this day if I was able to fill any size bra, I would not consider it. But now I am. My husband thinks I am sexy and beautiful regardless. He also has told me that I am over-analyzing and making too big a deal about this. I would love to know your opinion, because I certainly can’t make up my own.