onherwayback

I want to thank you all so much for the feedback and the warmth and compassion which all of you have demonstrated in giving me advice. I appreciate it SO much and I feel even more sure about my decision to meet with my leaders and do whatever possible to be happy again. I feel so blessed that this church is filled with such loving people. Thanks so much!! As I read through each of the replies to my post, I felt comfort in knowing that my boss, whether he finds out about it all at some point or another, will in fact just be happy that I am back and that I want to better my life. :) My only question now is: should I meet with him before/just after meeting with my Bishop just to say "Hey, I don't think you knew this but I have been inactive for a couple of years and I am preparing to meet/have met with the Bishop but I know that you are in the Stake Presidency so you might be finding out much, much more and I hope it doesn't affect our work relationship" or SOMETHING like that. Not necessarily those words?

Hello, Just to quickly introduce myself & give a little background. I found lds.net a couple of years ago when my best friend (who I worked with) would always sign on and give advice. I thought it was a neat idea and I've been checking in on different threads occasionally since then, I think the supportive and kind atmosphere here is great! Anyway, about me. I was divorced just over a year and a half ago. He has since moved on, re-married and has a baby. Since the divorce, I have been really bitter and angry and I MISTAKENLY blamed a lot of it on the church. So needless to say, I broke temple covenants (stopped wearing garments, stopped attending church and engaged in sexual behavior). There have been times I have thought about going back but just thinking about the repercussions and the consequences I was going to have to face if I went back kept me from returning. Now though, I have realized how empty my life is without the Gospel and how unhappy I really have been. I know that it's going to be very difficult to get back to being in good standing and worthy of a temple recommend someday, but I know that this is what I want. No matter what it takes. I went to church yesterday for the first time in a very, very long time, only to find out that my boss is in the Stake Presidency. My concern is that at some point I will have to stand in front of him (whether interview/disciplinary counsel) or that he'll have access to my records and he'll be able to see what my standing in the church is. I work very closely with him everyday and I know that if finds out about everything, I will not be treated the same, whether intentionally or not. So my question is: has anyone had this kind of experience before and if so, how did you handle it? Who would I need to talk to, to make an exception and let me attend a different stake? Or would you all suggest that I just go to a family ward for a little while, confess and undergo everything in that ward, and then switch back over to a YSA ward later down the road. Advice?