ilovejesus

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  1. Hi thankyou so much fr your kind words. I am definetley going to read those books. I will look out for them. And I will go see the bishop Just gotta pluck up the confidence to do that. But I know god will help me. Thankyou :)
  2. Hey yeah! I might not be able to come on here much. But I have facebook. Thankyou so much for the advice and I Hope that you can be happy too soon :)
  3. Hey people. This might be a longish message but I really need some advice help right now. I am 23 years old. Baptised into the church 5 years ago but was only active in the first year of that time. I have no parents as I was abused as a child and lost them both. I have had a really rough time in my life. Nobody in my family is in the church. I was inactive the last 4 years.and well I guess here are the things I need help with. . I came back to church because I started seeing a mormon guy. Execpt it was just plain no strings attached stuff. Like breaking the law of chastity. I fell in love with him and began to read the scriputres and pray again because I wanted to be with him. And I gained a testimony again. This guy is like pretty much it in our stake. Hes the most popular guy around and acts so faithful and temple worthy etc. But it turns out he was just using me when I was vulnerable and didn't know any better I'm reallly in love with him and its hurting me so bad. I dont want to go to any YSA meetings though because I'm scared of bumping into him again and seeing him with all the other girls hes got. I've repented of everything I did with him and I'm just so scared now. . I'm basically a nobody. I took drugs for years and drunk a lot whlst inactive from the church. I live alone and feel suicidal everyday but act happy to everyone else. I quit the drink and drugs and repented but I feel as though I do have a testimony but I can't change my life. I have nobody. I've tried being friends with peple in the church but I think they think I'm a little weird or awkward as I'm so shy. I keep asking god for help as I can't do this on my own anymore. I'm so lost. But Nothing changes no matter how hard I try. I dont think I fit in with anyone in the church since i came back either. I feel like my life is just going more and more downhill. I dont think I'm as pretty as the other girls. IN fact when I go to church i feel like an ugly mess compared to everyone else. I dont know what to do anymore. I've kept all this in. I'm still haunted every day by the abuse from my childhood and it hurts so bad. Today I went out and bought a pack of cigarettes cos I couldn't cope Ahh I duno what to do