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@ Lost One How long does excommunication last?? More than a year?? but than again it doesn't really matter... I've been hiding out for 2 years already anyway....... What do you have to do to get excommunicated?? You see it Turns out that ... I Fornicated with 2 men. I was 20 they were probably close to 30 or over. I didn't mean to... It's just I am a really weak person, and was to scared to beat them or do anything about it... so it happened a few times... Finally they got deported from the country.. so I am relived ... but I still have to confess... but I reall don't want to get punished,,,

Well, Yeah... The dying thing kinda scares me... I suppose I can't repent in heaven after I die?? ~ Anyways does it have to be my own bishop?? I have friends in other wards... can I possibly go to one of their bishops and confess? That was when the confession is done I will never have to see him again............ Also, I don't think I could just go up and tell him.... I mean ever since I was like 7 and did something wrong I always got my friends to tell on me... and then the teachers would call me out and at that point I HAD TO TELL them....... So my last genius plan.. is That I go to my friends ward... and tell her to rat me out to the bishop... at the point he would already know and would call me out ... then I WILL HAVE NO ESCAPE AND WILL HAVE TO CONFESS >.<

My HUMILITY, is fine... I already told Jesus that I was SORRY~

~ :<< Is there any way out of this? I do know that usually people are let off easy if the sin was committed a long long time ago.... So many if I wait until I'm 40 or 50.....I could come and confess... at that point long time would have passed and I wouldn't really have to be punished at forty for something that happened 20 years ago

Ok, so what if I don't lie....Say I don't mention anything about not knowing about the church and just ask to be baptized?

Well, I've got this question... I don't want to confess my sins to the Bishop because, First of all I don't like Punishment. also,I don't want to waste a year or even half a year on the repentance process, I don't feel that it's necessary. I told Jesus that I was sorry... so that should be that... Also If I were to confess to my bishop he would just think that I am a whore.. and I don't like to be thought of badly... Therefore, I think I have come up with a clever Idea... I want to be forgiven my sins and not get punished... Well I have been Baptized at 10 and now I'm 22.. but that's not the point.. I was wondering If this would work... i am planning to go to another country anyways.. When I go there can I join a Mormon church pretend that I don't know anything about this religion and just get baptized there??

Ooooh an older man!!! Hey I'll Marry you... lol I have no real good advice but I guess since I read all that you have to say... my suggestion is to pray alot.. more than you do now!! especially when you're about to touch your self...

Thank you for your advice :DDD I will try doing the raw foodist diet. I am not a big fan of raw vegetables.. but I do want to try all the less expensive methods of weight loss before I sign my self up for a program that costs over 1,000 bucks ~

Well, I am gonna make this short and sweet and to the point. I have 2 questions .. one is about weight loss and another one is a question regarding modest dressing. #1. Well I have been wanting to lose about 20 pounds for the last year and half... I've been loosing and gaining 5-10 pounds back and it's annoying... I wouldn't say that I am obese, but I definitely wear larger clothes than all my friends I am 22 now... and have been wearing adult size 10-12 since I was 14 years old.. considering that I am 168cm- 5"6 or 5"7 it's not so bad.... but If i could be thinner it would be nice. So.. If any one has Tried the HERBAL MAGIC PROGRAM I would appreciate it if you can tell me if it's worth doing, and how much would it cost to lose 20-30 pounds ... I went on their website and well... it's kind of ummm.... not detailed ... also I looked around some other forums and well they all say that it ranges and even one person spent 1000 bucks in one year... this kind of scared me into joining :<< Also I am assuming that it was probably someone really overweight so they needed to spent that much ........... Well Anyways, if you have any good weight lose tips or other programs that you know of please recommend to me :DD ... also I did join a gym .. have been going for a month now... but it's slow :<< 2. Ok second question... i have is about modest dressing. Even though I am LDS girl... In the last 2 years I have not really been dressing all that modestly.... While being 12-19 years old I didn't quite care that much about fashion so I'd wear anything my parents bought me... than at 20 I went crazy... i especially like those shorts and mini skirts in the summer.. However,I did have a few bad incidents due to my immodest dressing... While taking a bus to another town, some guy tried to touch me.... also another back experience at a b-day party which was similar... the fact that i look like a 16 year old girl (even though I'm 22) to strangers doesn't help I guess.... However, I really have a hard time giving up wearing mini skirts... So i looked around websites and all, and i found that in asia... Korea, China... Many girls wear long black tight leggings under there skirt or shorts.. so i was wondering if I also wore those under my mini skirts and shorts... can i keep wearing them... I mean I would have the leggings to cover my skin so it wouldn't really be immodest?

:33 I a good thing that I am not the only one who thinks people in the church are crazy.... *sigh* I would of liked to date in the church but sadly there almost no Asians so I just gave up and went looking else where

Thank you for the advice.. Sorry I kinda just read answers and think to myself for a long while and never bother to come back and reply cause I'm just so lazy ~ or just kinda forget.... Well anyways.. I don't think I will get any kind of therapy or counciling I don't do therapy and I don't due conciling... just like some people don't do poetry ... don't do therapy and I don't due conciling.....I 'm not good at admitting that I need help... I like helping others.... but I hate getting help.. it just makes me feel weak.. I mean I was always the kid in class that would read 5 chapters ahead just so I wouldn't need to ask the teacher for help in class and be able to solve things on my own... so I'm hoping i can get through this as welll..... ~ I think I got an Idea.... ( i guess I can ask for help on the forum since no one really knows me ).... well anyways... The plan is that i need a bachelors degree to finally be free of my dad... I quite my college last week...cause I could not switch into a degree program from my diploma program and was originally gonna apply for another university to do 4 years of school and starts over....... however I realizes something.. I have been studying korean from the very same textbooks that BYU uses for their korean major.. and my friend whom I know online used those textbooks as well for her proficiency test .. she told me that I can take it and try to skip some courses if I can get thoses credits so... I am thinking of taking the korean test and applying to BYU for the korean major.. in the mean time i'll get employed

Thank you for the advice.. Sorry I kinda just read answers and think to myself for a long while and never bother to come back and reply cause I'm just so lazy ~ or just kinda forget.... Well anyways.. I don't think I will get any kind of therapy or counciling I don't do therapy and I don't due conciling... j

~ For starters I really like your poem :DDD.... bhawww I can't write anything at all.. especially works of art like poem~ :33 I can draw well so maybe i can draw a comic strip to your poem for fun~ :DDD ~ Secondly, I'm LDS and 22 there are 2 girls in my ward who are 21 and 19 who are engaged. Some people in the Church that I know of are extremely jealous, but really I couldn't care less... I really don't understand this about Mormons wanting to have early marriages.~ Something that I'm really interested is in East Asia particularly Korea, and I've heard from a lot of my friends that the common age for girls to get married is 26-30 and for men starting from 30's~ I think that this in-fact is perfectly reasonable....... so Rose, un married at 24 is perfectly fine~ you can still enjoy 3 more years of freedom.. I mean.. what's the point of an early marriage..... And for women the most important thing shouldn't be age, it should be appearance. I'd rather get married at 26 and look 19 than be and engaged 19 year old and look like 26~ anyways that's just my 2 cents

Well, I am not really good at communicating... sadly this is true for trying to get my feelings out online as well. My whole life has been terrible. Well then, since this fact is out I guess I better sort out my thoughts and figure out exactly how every thing lead to the terrible part... cause I still don't know how. Number one it could partly be that my Christian mother married my Muslim father and than my Mother and I became Mormons... However my father remained a crazy Muslim man and has always been against us... I think this would be a good place to start...... My mother is from Russia and has always been a devoted Christian women. However when she was in university she met my father who was an exchange student from Bangladesh, at that time she didn't really know that much about Islam religion and all... Yes my father was Muslim... After my parents came to the states... things got worse... my father had to quit his studies and work in Mcdonalds because it was hard to support a family and go to school.... later on His family and friends told him that all his life troubles were because of my mother because she was a Christian. She didn't want to convert of course. However she didn't mind if he followed his own religion... My father was really angry and would come home every day and beat her when things wouldn't go well for him... I was only 4 years old and I remember how my mom would put me and*at the time* baby brother into another room so we that we couldn't;t hear her cries... but it was horrifying.... I snuck out a couple of times... and and saw how my father beat her with a vacuum cleaner or a broom.. or would just push her to the ground.... My mother came to the US by refugee status and couldn't return to Russia because possibly being arrested... at the time getting a visa was hard and my father told her to go to the states.. she took out a visiting visa later applied as a refugee stating that she couldn't go back because she was not free to practice her religion and if she went back to Russia they would arrest her for applying as a visiting visa and then stating that..... Also My mother worked part time for 4 $ an hour selling donuts... I remember being 5 Years old... my mother would leave my my baby brother and me at home and tell me to keep and eye on him.... she told me that during her 10 min break she would rush home and check up on us.. also an elderly lady next door was kind enough to watch us for free for 4 hours a day on most days.... This is getting tooooo long so I will shorten it.... Basically we lived in this kind of poverty and abuse in the states for six years from the time I was 2 to the time I was 8... My mother couldn't leave this abusive environment because she was afraid to leave ... if she left my father services would takes us away and put us in to Foster homes..... So after putting up with this... my mother realized that it was impossible to get documents in the states ... so some how my father and mother applied for canada and got it... my childhood continued to be horrible as we still lived in an a impoverished and abusive environment.... When I was 8 missionaries were living not to far away from us and came to our house to introduce the gospel to us... My father drove them away.... yelling and swearing ... after we moved and my father when back to his country for a little while ... I was 10 the Missionaries came to our house again.... My mother Accepted that Gospel and got baptized... even though I didn't know what was going on I got baptized a week later.... My father found out about this and became absolutely crazy.... Even though we could not have missionaries over my mother, younger brother and I would sneak out of the house on Sunday and got o church from when I was 10 to about when I was 16 years old... My father eventually found out where we went on SUndays and what not... and became really even more angrier than usual... at this time my mother started going to school... eventually go a better job to become independent of my father...... I was about 16 here... One night he came into the room where I was sleeping and tried to stabb me with a knife and also threated to stabb my mother with a knife... so I called the police and they arrested him....... eventually my dad begged my mother to let him out and so she did.... he doens't live with us... but still comes home top threaten us and make us feel terrible... I think due to all the stress and abuse my mother has taken... she developed a disability and can't work now..... I am having a lot of trouble with life... I am almost 22... My birthday is next week.... ~ I've had trouble with school and realize that in my situation I cannot choose to do what i wanted to.. so I decided to take this semester off and applied to Uni for Early Child hood education... since it offers a bachelors degree which will mean I will finally have freedom from my Dad..... Alot of my friends will soon be graduating... and enjoying their life.... While I have to be stuck in school for the next 4 years.... I am just really hating how my life turned out.... I just really want to die and Ask God if I can be reborn in a better family... I really don't know what to do... or what kind of advice i really need....

Hey, this is probably a really stupid question and I'm sorry if it is.... But I've actually been thinking about this for a long time now.. possibly since 2005.... also I prefer to get mostly answers from Mormons.. since I consider them to be more or less more correct .... God created everyone right? If God created everyone and If you ask him to UNCREAT you do you think he will grant it for you?...... everything created can be destroyed...so?