premissionary

I see your your point, but I only have one shot at a mission, too give it my all, while even if i get fired i will always be able to find a new job, receive help from family, or the Church. I would say that a mission is more stressful because i have the wonderful opportunity to bring the gospel into people's lives and if i don't go or don't work 110%, i miss out on blessings that will impact others and myself way more then a job would. I guess i do agree its the expectation that is hard sometimes. If you postpone i feel people think you are a looser and a sinner.

Thanks guys. I know what i need to do, just need support. Don't you think it's kinda annoying the pressure a young man feels for a mission? Don't get me wrong its both good and bad, but i feel like sometimes we are pushed on by parents, family, friends, and ourselves before we really understand the seriousness and need for worthiness before we leave and this causes people to be caught in a situation like me where you want to fulfill the call sooo bad but know that its just going to hurt you if you go out before you are completely ready. or maybe i am the only one haha. Will my bishop always remember this you think?

Hey so I am a pre-missionary. I have a call and i am set to report to MTC in august. The problem i have is that i have a self stimulation issue and it has never been resolved. I kept telling myself i could do it along, but i have failed. I guess since i was 12, but i didn't know it was bad until 16 and then just kinda always thought that i was finished. I don't know why i didn't just get this out of the way in the interviews, i guess i had put it behind me. I feel really stupid and i know i need to get this cleared up. I guess i just want support because its going to be weird when people ask why i am not leaving when i was supposed too. I don't really care because i know i want to be the best i can be.