Im a newly converted member of LDS church. I fell in love with a missionary, whose return date would have been towards the end of December '11. I never had the intention of having a relationship with this missionary as I respected the rules of engagement i.e. the missionary rules. But, he pursued me relentlessly via text. Over the course of a month and a half we had grown very close and fell in love. We complimented each other very well and understood each other. We even discussed our family life, and knew well the dynamics of our families. Our future was planned. There was a wedding date. A date for getting sealed in the temple. Where we would live. He pledged his undying love. And we both had a mutual feeling that this was true love. (we both had had many prior relationships to know that what we were feeling was real) Well. Just last week, the missionary president found out about the text, and of course he told them everything, including our sexual transgression. He was then later immediately sent home, and disfellowshipped from his church. He wrote me upon his return... he had a lot to do to get back into the church, and as for our relationship he said, "As for things with us. I feel we need to forsake options that we had previously held. To much regret but my life is now in a place where it wont work. I am sorry. I know that what I have done was wrong and I am so sorry for all the hurt i have caused. stay strong in the church. I hope you will. and I will always be here as your friend."
Of course Im hurt. I didnt understand what he was going through. And how someone who had spent almost every minute pledging his love for me, to planning our lives together, thinking of family vacations, events, places to live, even coming up with the names of our kids and our pet cat -could all of a sudden decide to end it. Can someone explain to me what might be going on in this guys head? Any advice? (before anyone starts judging me. i did in fact talk to my bishop. i have work to do myself. and i regret for not being the better person and resist the temptation when it came)