I'm 19, I have been since January, and I just barely got ordained an Elder.
When I was interviewing with the Bishop and the Stake I was honest and I answered the questions honestly. When I was asked if I considered myself worthy a small part of me said no but I said yes. I attributed it to the adversary trying to make me feel bad about myself. So I got ordained and now I'm starting to wonder if I really am worthy. I have mission plans and I really want to go; wanting to go on a mission was what got me back to the church and out of the bad place I had fallen into.
Lately my thoughts have been wandering, and while I try to keep them good bad thoughts always come in. I push them out when they come in but it bugs me that such thoughts even happen. Another thing worrying me is maybe there are some things in the past that I've repented for that maybe I forgot to talk about with my Bishop, or things that happened that while I did talk to my Bishop in a broad sense I could have maybe explained in greater detail.
I don't know if it's Satan trying to bring me down, or if maybe I'm not worthy of the Melchizedek priesthood. It's starting to really bug me.
This wednesday I'm talking with my Bishop. We're going to start the process of getting my papers turned in. I plan to talk about my concerns with him but right now I need somebody to talk to and I really just need some outside opinions.
