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And I have loved and still do love this man. I know he is really struggling, but he slips further and further away. Better to pray for both of us. I know not where to turn but to the Lord. I am alone and 59. I have a pet collie, so I guess you could say I have one dependent!

You bail out of the relationship. Don't try to have a heart to heart because he regards you as a cardboard person, only someone to manipulate. He is bragging about his manipulative omnipotent powers. He is into grandness! HIS grandness! He says he is on the Lord's side, but not. He only uses that to manipulate the true followers of Christ. This makes him feel even more magnificent! If you have him read President Kimball's "Miracle of Forgiveness," he will in no doubt be wroth and want to tear the book apart! That is what happened yesterday with my husband. He is a narcissist. I am exiting the marriage ASAP!

Yes, it is like a train wreck but worse. It is the wreckage of a soul which is of great worth in the eyes of our Heavenly Father. Surely he grieves. We grieve that our efforts and unconditional love have been thrust in our faces. Remember Enoch grieving in eternity for the lost souls. This is how all the followers of Christ feel. I am sick to my stomach over my situation and have lots of health problems from trying to carry the burden too far, even though I have cast it on the Lord many times. But now it is strictly between the Lord and him. I am out of the picture, moving as quickly as possible to change my life and seek renewal.

I have loved him and will continue to do so as a disciple of Christ. But I do not "romantically love" nor condone his ill behaviors any longer. Yesterday I told him that I have now "removed" my love from him because he has stated that he hates himself and wants to kill himself. He put porn on my website and minimized it to our clergy. If he hates he cannot love. Therefore he does not love me. Therefore my loving him is a waste of time in that our relationship is over. I spent all this time thinking he loved m e and was devastated to learn otherwise. He has made kill statements before and held a gun to his head. I had him institutionalized. It only lasted 10 days and he was out and up to his stuff again. That was 6 long years ago! There has been so much "stuff!" Easter weekend he made more kill statements and I was off to the abuse shelter for four days until he started abusing my pet. He suckered me home to fix the situation and felt so victorious! I am in a danger zone and I know it so I filed for divorce yesterday. I spent the night locked in the bedroom and would not let him in nor come out. I hope legal services will help me through this because I am in ptsd.

I am a disciple of Christ. I have applied every scripture I find and most of all forgiveness to the situation all to no avail until I am in a precarious position, again, and struggling to survive the abuses. No matter how kind and loving we are it is of no value to them and as pearls cast before swine! This makes me feel such a failure. I was told by the spirit not to fail at this marriage and gave it my all. My recent thought was that "he" has failed and that I have not. I have been driven to file for divorce as of yesterday.

Thank you for you informative statement. I am in ptsd trying just to get the divorce filing done. Needed strength to carry on. Goes against my faith. Second marriage. Gone down the tubes. Same reason. Getting counseling from battered shelter. 8 years of emotional, sexual, financial, threats, intimidation, isolation, minimizing, humiliation, and economic terror.

What does this mean? Would love to chat with you...

(paraphrasing right here) "The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step," I believe Confucious stated?

Thank you for being new and new. You are young and new. I am old and new. lol

I guess if "This is the place," to do it I will then introduce myself. I am member 35 years. In Kansas like Dorothy... Lost and looking for "Home". Delivered here by none other than the Lord!

Would someone tell me how to introduce myself properly? I finally found the "rules" and read them and agreed. Welcome fresh new member catholic! The quest for truth never ends! Good luck on your journey!

Hello Missy-I appreciate you mentioning opposition. Could you be more specific? You're touching on the subject is an important point for me. Long story, but very important point. So Thanks!

Thank you Brian for your post. I feel so comfortable talking with you. Your help is so greatly appreciated. Your service is a resting spot for my weary soul. I don't know how to proceed from here, but will learn over time. I am very alone. I am late 50's. Me and the dog. Kids all over the US. 5. Mostly estranged from me by x-husband, from first marriage, except 1 out of state at present. The one living close, by is reticent to help but has agreed to accept sensitive mail from the court system for me temporarily, as of yesterday.

I do not know where to click to find the rules! First time doing this. I want to say more but don't know what the guidelines are. lol. Any help for this lost and wandering computer illiterate?

Hello from Kansas City, Missouri The temple is ready for dedication and my marriage is in progress of divorce. My husband is a second attempt for me. Both times narcissists. Was not learned about this and "oops'd" a second time. Any hope Brian before I sign on the dotted line?