I'm new here so I hope I'm posting in a good place.
I had my daughter 6 months ago and ever since I have suffered from severe postpartum depression. On top of that my husband officially resigned from the church, but that's for a different post when I'm ready to deal with that. I've recently been well enough to start going back to church. My bishop, who is also my father in law, knows what has been going on and has been trying to support me where he can. Unfortunately understanding postpartum is the one thing he can't do as hard as he may try.
I'm looking for advice from someone who can understand better. I feel so guilty about missing out on precious time with my daughter because I can't get enough motivation to be there for her. Medication makes me sleep all the time and causes me to miss out on moments of her life. Also when I do see her I cant help feel like she deserves better than me. I can't shake the guilty feeling that I've missed out on her life thus far. I cant help but question how my daughter or heavenly father can forgive me for missing out on so much and not appropriately appreciating this precious gift I have been given.
Do any moms out there know how I can better use the atonement to overcome this feeling? I feel so lost when talking to other moms in my wars. They all seem to have it together from day one and here I am at day 170 and I still can't get it together.
