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My reading of this reads that this is all about you and your "bride" experience you you missed. My opinion is that a family sealing event is not the place to be looking to create that experience. You have a son. This is now a sealing of the family. Different than joining 2 in marriage. Your son will be there to be sealed together. again just my opinoin.

Just pray. That is all. Talk to the one with the answers. These people on the forum (me included) do not know the best decision for your situation. My father does not believe one theological tenet of the church. But he's there every sunday. When asked if he "believes" he responds with "I hope". I know other people who believe every theological tenet of the church with every fabric of their being. Yet they NEVER attend church services. You don't have to be a "sheeple" You have to be you. Your relationship with the church will be unique. You've got to figure that out for yourself. It could be you need to leave and never think about it again. It could be that you need to rededicate yourself. The only person I can think of that knows is God. Pray.

Good Luck. Just remember: D&C 64:9-11 9 Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin. 10 I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men. 11 And ye ought to say in your hearts—let God judge between me and thee, and reward thee according to thy deeds. If people who do find out hold it against you and do not FORGIVE you, that is not your problem. That is them choosing to remain in their sin.

Yeah I'd feel pretty sorry for the fella who got a virus from an email or a flash hack, and once his woman found it, she wasn't as studious as Delanie, and went all "Nut uh, there was porn on tha computa! You lyin', you lyin', I saw it boy! you a porn freak! I gots no time 'fo porn freaks" I'm sure its happened to a few people.

There's no chance it was him within seconds blasting to a bunch of different porn sites on a day he was out of town. Virus. Get it cleaned up.

Its more of a "treat your body as the temple for your spirit that it is". There's no restriction on twinkies, but if you eat nothing but twinkies and balloon up to obese, you're not following the word of wisdom.

How close? Seconds? Minutes? tens of minutes? if the dates were for times he was gone, then it wasn't him obviously. From what I'm reading I'm thinking your machine is still infected, and the crash wasn't fixed properly. I've fixed hundreds of crashed pcs where suddenly the machine is browsing porn on its own, and these are laptops owned & used exclusively by women who I trust would never start going there on their own. The best course of action is to back up any and all documents, favorites, and email files you may have on the machine to a USB stick or another pc, then reinstall the operating system from scratch. (of course you'll have to reinstall all the programs as well.) You can then get and use a program called deep-freeze that will allow you to go back to the pristine state regardless of what happenes in the future (accidental deletions, viruses etc). If you're still using XP you can download and install a free version of this type of software from microsoft called "steady state". read this article: McSweeney’s Internet Tendency: Retraction: There is In Fact Such a Thing as a Virus that Puts Porn on Your Computer.

This sounds like virus behavior. Are there timestamps? If your husband was browsing porn, there'd be time between the site hits, if they're very close together in time, its more than likely a virus. While re-installing there may have been a time when your antivirus software was not installed or up to date. Perform a full hard drive scan on your machine with your antivirus software. Do a think back to the date and time that they were brought up, (was he even on the pc at that time/date?) and do a logic check on the timesstamps, if they were all at the same time or one right after the other, or with equal times between them, that's indiciative of computer, not human browsing. Keep in mind if you're visiting ONE website, most of the time, you're actually visiting many, because the advertisements etc are pulled from other websites. If he needed to ahem, torrent, a program that he needed to reinstall from a site like, ahem, the piratebay. . . the advertisements on sites like that can be pointed at pornographic content. Also pronographic websites "park" domains, such that if you're trying to type in Disney | Official Home Page for All Things Disney and accidentally type dinsey.com, you can be whisked away to pornographic sites via forwarding code, and land somewhere like "pornographic.com". Did he do a full-reinstall of the OS? If your system crashed via virus, and he simply uninstalled/reinstalled the programs that were broken the virus stuff would still be in there. All that being said, just talk to your husband about it. You know him enough to know when he's acting "caught" vs "what the heck are you talking about?" Don't you? You can wrap yourself around the axle with forensics, or you can just confront the person directly.

I don't disagree that its difficult. It IS. But consider the alternatives: No sex drive, OR a messed up sense of sexuality that involves only yourself and images/fantasy such that when you finally do find a partner your body doesn't respond! No sex drive would be abnormal body function. Its healthy to have that drive, it instigates you seeking out mates to pass on your DNA and expand your family tree. That's the outlet I'd be pursuing if I had it to do all over again, dating and getting to really know as many women as possible such that you can find one you can really connect to on other levels, because in the long run sex is just going to be something you do with that partner, it isn't the be-all and end-all of a relationship. 99.9% of your time will be spent with that person doing life things other than sex. Messing up your sexuality because it was difficult not to take a shortcut that your mind wires itself to respond sexually to may be just as bad as no sex drive. Even when you do find a mate, you can't pass on your DNA because it just doesn't work. Unfortunately you don't even get to find out this has happened to you UNTIL you find a partner and try to have sex. I'd encourage anyone struggling with this to read stories of other men who've already been down that path and how badly they regret it now that they've got a mate who they cannot perform with. With the advent of the internet and internet anonymity, there's literally thousands of men now capable of confessing and working together on an issue they never would even admit to face to face beyond vague relations such as "women in the porn give you an unrealistic view of women". How? Those are real women in those videos. What they're were really saying back when this information had to be passed on by word of mouth face to face without anonymity is: "I did this stuff, and now even with my wife there ready to have sex, it doesn't work, I must have built up an unrealistic expectation". Not realizing they had rewired their limbic system to respond with a dopamine reward to the wrong stimuli. With the amount of science we now know about the brain and the limbic system its pretty easy to put together the puzzle of how porn and masturbation messes up your biological responses to the stimuli its supposed to respond to with a substitute stimuli. Read the articles at yourbrainonporn.com. The science should scare you from ever wanting to break your body. If the eternal consequences aren't scary enough, the immediate consequences may be. If we were just our animal bodies, we'd behave like the rest of the animal kingdom: male dog meets female dog, sniff sniff sniff, and then you're mating if the pheromones indicate its a good time to breed. But then we'd all be dealing with the repercussions of this type of mating that you see in the animal kingdom: Alpha wolves kill other wolves who try to mate with their pack. Sexually transmitted diseases are transferred far more often in animals. Receiving a body for your spirit to experience means experiencing these lower-level animal traits that we've inherited from our predecessors. How convenient that we're spirits that aren't at the behest of our pheromones and animal urges and have at least SOME level of control, even though it still is not easy.

I agree, the best something is a healthy sex life with a married partner. If you're too young for that, the best path is to not develop the addiction in the first place.

I think its a pandora's box issue. When you're young and have never masturbated to orgasm, then you "don't know what you're missing" which is a good thing. You just feel a foreign sense of "fullness" in your loins, but you have the natural process of "nocturnal emmissions" or "wet dreams" to evacuate dead sperm if you just continue on without masturbating. Once you have masturbated to orgasm, I'm sure as the well fills up it becomes MUCH harder to abstain. In my older, wiser analysis, the reason that the church teaches you not to masturbate is really not a physical one, its a mental one. It trains your mind to be ashamed of your sexuality through the hiding from others, and the non-human stimuli. One need only venture out on a google to find many stories of men who can get a great erection by themselves with masturbation/porn, but cannot get or maintain an erection with their naked, willing partner present. This is obviously not a physical condition, its a mental condition. Your mind doesn't feel right, and you feel "exposed" which triggers the flight/fight reaction. The church is wise in discouraging masturbation, and those who abstain are wise. I don't subscribe to the idea there are urges you need to learn to "control" so that you don't have a "need" to have sex, even when you're older and married, I think its a matter of you don't want to damage your natural wiring, and reprogram yourself to be turned on by the stimulus of your computer or hiding place, and your hand. For further information check out yourbrainonporn.com and yourbrainrebalanced.com Seems to me when you talk to men from a scientific perspective vs just a right/wrong perspective, the church's teaching's change from arcane and old-fashioned to quite forward-thinking.

The word of wisdom urges us to treat our bodies as the divine temples of our spirit that they are. Anything you do for the help, edification, or treatment of the body to make it better, is OK with the word of wisdom. Anything you do detrimental with disregard to the consequences to your body is not ok. This is why using heroin is against the word of wisdom, but taking oxycontin (medical heroin) by the direction of your doctor is not against the word of wisdom.

You will be married and free to have sex before you know it. Get to know other parts of each other now. Forge new activities you'll end up doing together for the rest of your life. Your new toy becomes your old boring toy soon enough right? Other than sex, children and grandchildren, there's not as many new experiences in life once you get older. Don't ruin them by being over-eager. I would not marry a person who was not sexually attracted to me, neither should you.

The solution to masturbating to pornography addiction is to address the root cause. Pornography did not reach out, grab you, put a gun to your head and make you view it. It is not responsible. There was a hole in your heart, or a problem in your life that you decided to use pornography to try to soothe. You may not even be concious of the issue yet. Therapy can help. I'd suggest starting off reading a book called No More Mr Nice Guy by Dr. Robert Glover. Do not let the name of the book fool you. It is a great book at getting to the heart of guy's issues. It focuses on childhood issues such as abandonment, neglect, abuse, etc and shows you how these issues manifest themselves in acting out behaviors like compulsive pornography/masturbation and presenting yourself as something different than you are to garner attention from women. It also gives you a roadmap to fix the issue(s). Secondly for those who are married AND those who are not, after reading No More Mr Nice Guy, get the Married Man Sex Life Primer by Athol Kay. This should be REQUIRED reading for all males to graduate high school. It is marriage oriented and NOTHING in it is contrary to the teachings of the church. It has sections about choosing a mate that could be critical to those who have yet to get married, and plenty of help for those who are already married. Once you have a HEALTHY outlook on sex, and aren't using sex and orgasms to medicate yourself from other pains, and especially after having entered into a HEALTHY sexual relationship with a partner who also has a HEALTHY outlook on their sexuality, the pornography and masturbation problems WILL disappear. You don't have to "control" any urge, they NEVER happen. Ignore people who say "I've been married for X years and still have a pornography problem. They do not have a HEALTHY sexual relationship nor a HEALTHY outlook on their sexuality. They have not addressed the root cause, and like a plant you just break off at the surface, the root just re-grows the plant. Just like drug abuse, Pornography usage and masturbation are symptoms of an underlying issue. You have to figure out what that issue is and address it.

The solution to a masturbating to pornography addiction is to address the root cause. Pornography did not reach out, grab you, put a gun to your head and make you view it. It is not responsible. There was a hole in your heart, or a problem in your life that you decided to use pornography to try to soothe. You may not even be concious of the issue yet. Therapy can help. I'd suggest starting off reading a book called No More Mr Nice Guy by Dr. Robert Glover. Do not let the name of the book fool you. It is a great book at getting to the heart of guy's issues. It focuses on childhood issues such as abandonment, neglect, abuse, etc and shows you how these issues manifest themselves in acting out behaviors like compulsive pornography/masturbation and presenting yourself as something different than you are to garner attention from women. It also gives you a roadmap to fix the issue(s). Secondly for those who are married AND those who are not, after reading No More Mr Nice Guy, get the Married Man Sex Life Primer by Athol Kay. This should be REQUIRED reading for all males to graduate high school. It is marriage oriented and NOTHING in it is contrary to the teachings of the church. It has sections about choosing a mate that could be critical to those who have yet to get married, and plenty of help for those who are already married. Once you have a HEALTHY outlook on sex, and aren't using sex and orgasms to medicate yourself from other pains, and especially after having entered into a HEALTHY sexual relationship with a partner who also has a HEALTHY outlook on their sexuality, the pornography and masturbation problems WILL disappear. You don't have to "control" any urge, they NEVER happen. Ignore people who say "I've been married for X years and still have a pornography problem. They do not have a HEALTHY sexual relationship nor a HEALTHY outlook on their sexuality. They have not addressed the root cause. Pornography usage and masturbation are SYMTOMS of a deeper issue. You have to deal with the deeper issue, or like a weed you simpy break off at the surface of the ground, the still living roots will simply grow another plant.