I have recently started back to the church after years and years of being inactive. I am doing EVERYTHING that is asked of me. I read the scriptures almost daily, i pray throughout the day, I worked with my bishop to work through my years of inactivity and the mistakes I made, and I actively serve others.
Yet I am struggling with different thoughts and feelings I have not felt since I left the church. Feeling LESS than, feeling hopeless that I can not live this high standard of life, and feeling like I just want to RUN.... RUN fast away.
I have prayed, I have fasted... and so forth. Sometimes it brings hours of peace but the overwhelming feeling of "I can't do this" returns.
Living the gospel is REALLY hard. I know if I walk away I will never come back.
I am looking for ANY suggestions or advice on how to make it through this.
I am desperate for any advice, answers, or prayers.
I do not want to be a burden on anyone in my ward or my bishop anymore...