christinagriffith04

I want to say thank you to those who posted and those who said a silent prayer for me. Since posting this I can say I have really felt a renewed sense of confidence, purpose, and have tried to look at things in a genuine way, as they are really are, as opposed to how I think they should be... I am making a plan of action today, setting some plans in motion, which include seeking some counseling from experts, staying positive and focused and most of all to remain sensitive to any prompting received from the Holy spirit as I go about making some positive changes in my life. I am starting today.

Please don't judge me because I chose to go back to my home. It was really hard living in a group home with 3 small children who missed their dad. It was hard to have people always telling me what marriages are sacred and the children need a family and my own son told me, I was turning my back on a temple sealing for my family. I had a friend take me in for a few days before I could get into the shelter and I'm so thankful for friends that will help me. I have had friends who now won't speak to me because I chose to go back. I feel like no matter what I do, I upset somebody!

Thanks for your input. It is refreshing to hear a male perspective. I used to work full time and when I was a single parent with my oldest two, I worked full time and was responsible for the rest. He does put me down as far as being a crappy housekeeper, and so on. A few weeks ago, he started chucking canned items off the kitchen counter into the living room and hit me with one. I was pretty set on leaving until he apologized and gave his reasons. I do worry about the decisions I make and how they will affect our children. We have 2 daughters that I hope would marry someone more supportive and loving, and have a son that I hope treats his wife like the daughter of a King! I just wish I had some peace of mind really. I am so afraid of making the wrong choice that it is hard to make one! And we did try the counseling route, but he cancelled half of them and never did the assigned homework.

I was hoping to get some advice. Everywhere I see quotes and advice given about how 2 people are to work together to have a happy home life. It seems so depressing to me. Here is my situation... My husband and I have been married for about 6 years. We have a 6 yr old, 3 yr old, and almost 2 year old with one on the way in October. We also have 2 older children from a previous relationship that do not live with us. He works full time, while I stay at home with the kids. Most of the time, I manage and try to stay on top of feedings, changings, dishes, cooking, laundry, cleaning, shopping, bill paying and so on. All while living in a small house and not getting any assistance other than financial from him. Recently with this new pregnancy, I have been really run down and sick. I should mention I am in my later 30's. My husband constantly complains about the house and the kids, yet doesn't help me, even if I ask and yes I ask nicely most of the time! I am feeling so frustrated and depressed about my situation. He believes that because he works all day, he should not be expected to come home and do it all for me! I have had past issues of abuse, from him, but I keep staying here to be a mother to my children, and try to be a good wife and housekeeper. I left briefly to stay at a woman's shelter but came back after he made some changes and promised to become active in the church and assured me that becoming temple worthy and sealing our family together in the temple was what he desired. Now that I am back, he has quit going to church altogether and again puts me down often. Now, I am trying to decide whether to find an apartment, or go to a shelter, even though I hated leaving my home, get a job, even though I have no skills or training to find one that will pay for my daycare, I could go back to school, but then I wonder how all of this will affect the children. I feel like I have prayed for guidance and inspiration to know what to do, but I am in a fog in my mind and cannot get out of this sickness, depression, and feel confindent about my decisions. Thanks for reading this. Writing it down helps. I just know that I cannot live like this.