Sourgirl

I feel much better, reading a lot about the church. I am still a bit terrified but after reading and seeing that it takes many times to geT familiar with it, I feel much more open to learn about it, I'm not sure I'm going to feel comfortable anytime soon but I think I'm open to giving it another try. I've been a lifetime member but it feels like I'm a convert because of all the new information. Thanks for asking. Our sealing is in a few days.... I'm still scared though.. I may need to go again before the day.

Wow!!!thanks so much!!

Thanks to all, reading your responses has really helped me calm Down a lot. I am no longer burdened by the thoughts, thank you all

I just wanted to ask your feelings on your experience on going to the temple, without going into any detail. How did the whole experience make you feel? Did you understand anythig? What helped to guide you in the days after your endowments? Recently we had our first... as much as I would like to say that I loved it.. I did not, while i believe it is the house of the lord... I am left puzzled. I love the church, I really really do. I've never been happier, but this experience has left me feeling numb, confused and honestly a bit embarrased. A lot of people have said it was the best day of their lives, was I not prepared well enough? I was excited... now I am just confused. While I understand that my view and feelings might be of the "world" hence the weirded out part. I wanna feel happy again, I am numb, I am sad, I felt humiliated, silly. While I get the message... I can't stop feeling like this. Any suggestions? I feel like I need some type of intervention, but In my heart I love the church, I believe in our prophets and everything is so perfect until this.