Hi, I totally understand what you mean. I was raised by a wiccan and a buddhist. Always looking for my spiritual home. When I was 14 I joined the Lutheran Church. It was never home. From the time I was 16 Saints kept crossing my path. I investigated, but was missing this prompting telling that this is the true church. I liked it and started to love it, but my parents totally disagreed. Throughout the years, I met Saints and was always very comfortable around them. However, I partied hard and lived my life... I met my husband who was raised LDS, but had his name removed when he was 18 but still believes in the gospel (long story). His parents and some of his siblings are very active members. It took me some more years until I decided to go to a sacrament meeting when my in-laws visited. And out of the blue, I felt that this is where I need to be. And I got baptized. Don't feel pressured. It took me 20 years from my first contact with the church until i joined. Keep investigating... meet members... aks quesitions.