Hi! I am a 14 year old girl. Here is my long list of problems: So when I was younger about in fourth grade I began to mastrubate. I did not even know what it was. Then in fifth grade my mom gave me the talk, she explained what mastrubation was, and she told me "Although many people think its wrong. It is not... Your body is yours blah blah blah..." So I knew what it was and thought it was okay and "healthy". Then I believe in seventh or eighth grade I was reading a statistics book complete woth random facts and it showed all of these religions, and sins and showed what relegions accept it and reject it. Under Mormon, there was mastrubation, and it said we included it as a sin. I was so upset and felt so betrayed, I looked up how serious it was and found out that it was pretty serious. And all of that while I was holding a temple reccommend. I later tried to repent (individually) and thought I was good although I had a couple of slips. And then my family was planning on getting sealed in the temple. Yes, I know realized I entered the temple unworthily that day but convinced myself that I took the sacrement last week so I'm good! I hate myself because of that and even later learned that you have to be worhty to take the sacrement!!! Ugh! All of that time I entered one "official" porn site but got off almoat immedietly because of discomfort.ive seen a couple of things (not on porn sites, but still online) And watched a bit of light porn (rated pg-13 movie sex scenes on youtube.) Sorry if I was a little explict, i want to give as many details I can to make sure I do exactly whats needed. I do understand I need to talk to my bishop some how. I dont want to mention my mom, but I think its a good reason why all of this happened. And here is the other problem, I get social anxiety, I dot know how in the world I will do this, how can I say this? Do I just scedule and appointment and walk in "Oh Hi bishop! Did you loose weight? Yea I was wondering if I should never see the face of the earth again because Ive mastrubated and watched porn pretty much half of my life!! Annnnd: my bishop has a hard time keeping his mouth shut. There were three boys that interveiwed for something, and the whole ward knew who they were, Bishop walked up to the microphone and said "I am sad to report that only two of the three boys were worthy to go." Ummmm so everyone pretty much knew who was unworthy!!! I am in an awful situation guys! Please help me have courage! I want to talk to him before June 2015. I hope I dont this doesnt ruin my already falling apart family. Maybe I should tell close people first so I could be more comfortable tellig the Bishop. Thanks in advance.