robertskimd

Thanks for your kind words. It's difficult to remove the walls one has built to guard his heart after it's been slashed one too many times. I'll just give it time in the garden of life :) Focus on building up my life and perhaps someday she'll come along.

Nice! I'm a science major attending BYU Provo. I don't see your membership affecting admission. After all, it's just a school - albeit an awesome one :) I'd apply to each of the CES schools, but I'd honestly recommend Provo over Hawaii. There are many research opportunities and such for science majors here. You'd love it. Congrats on the testimony/investigator progress, and keep up the good work.

Just saying hi from Provo! I'm an undergrad science major at BYU just getting ready for grad school. Been back from serving a mission for under a year, and just trying to make the most out of life!

Hey all I'm just becoming disheartened, frustrated, and disillusioned through my recent experiences dating in Provo. Rejection after rejection, and I just can't take it anymore. I'm not exactly bad looking, but I just must have had bad luck at picking girls in relationships or that had no intention of progressing in a relationship. School is great, and I have a great career ahead of me. Family life and other things are well. I just feel destroyed from the negative experiences I've had - I feel like I have a dagger in my heart from the painful experiences of just trying. Mission had lots of rejection, but this is different. I always used to feel liked and appreciated. Now that i'm in my major classes, there are just hardcore science and career women, and I really (no offense to feminists, but I disagree with that philosophy) would prefer a more traditional wife/GF. I'm pretty flexible, but I am just finding women as focused on their careers as I am, and I'm just getting weary of the journey alone. Missing church sometimes because I just can't stand to see the happy couples - the only thing I've wanted and have failed miserably at. It just pains me. Add my current pain and struggles onto the vision forward of so many divorces, so many relationship problems, changing gender roles, career and educationally burdened women...I just feel the hope is running out. My confidence which was once strong is now weak and dim. I just can't go on. Picked up swearing, changed my music, and have lost faith in the disenheartening depression that followed. I only say that so you can appreciate the extent that this has affected and pained me... I don't even have the will to ask for one more date, because so much has happened. I'm considering adopting a practice of celibacy and just going to grad school and living as a science man. Sad, but I have lost all hope for relationships and marriage.e Just women that want money, abuse men...we're a dying breed. Every once in a while I get a boost back up, but my sad state returns quickly. Dating-induced depression. Never felt this way before. Ever.