I was married in the temple 15 years ago. We have 3 children. We were very happy, when little by little, my husband's pornography problem subtly came to light. It began with "accidental" clicks here and there that I chose to let go. Right before our oldest turned 8, I found some videos downloaded that he confessed were his doing. He was unable to perform the baptism, went straight to the bishop, and seemed very repentant. He went to a few ARP meetings, but said it wasn't an addiction; that he just needed to stop, and he would. We counseled with our bishop, and things seemed resolved. Still, even after this, there were things that told me in my gut it was still a problem. I told him he needed to be honest and vigilant to fix this problem, because I couldn't bear the pain of this anymore. He assured me he was committed. In March, I found proof of his continued porn use. I kept it to myself until May. I have been to the temple alone, been in counseling for several months, and he's gone some, too. I go to the family ARP meetings; he goes to them addict ARP meetings, but only when I remind him. He hasn't even bothered talking to the bishop yet. I feel I really need the bishop's support, but if I go first, I'll feel like I'm telling on a grown man. He has become very affectionate, very helpful around the house, and more even tempered with the kids... But it feels like he's trying to appease me without really changing things. We have an agreement to wait until August and re-evaluate... But I am so tired of the hurting and the lies, I honestly would leave now if I had the financial ability to do so. I actually feel peace when I think and pray about divorce. But I know it will put the kids through hell and turn all our lives upside down. Am I horrible for just feeling like I'm done? Anyone in the same boat? I welcome any thoughts.