my girlfriend and me broke up 1 month ago.I have a many mistakes and she hates me now. Life is very hard for me now. I lost my hope.I lost my belief in marriage. I can not focus on my business because my mind is always full.I really wanted to have a family But I can not feel it anymore.I know she will not return but I think I don't want to believe it.Everything is getting worse I can sleep 3 or 4 hours.I don't like to talk to my friends and family about it because I don't like to look powerless.I don't know what to do.All my feelings have disappeared.normally ı'm a very happy person but I am in big void .I always blame myself.I am very unhappy and I fear that it will continue.ı'm 30 years old and this is very tiring for me.I can not think right now.I always think 'maybe ,maybe'
Should I try to continue my life ?or should ı wait for her ? I don't know what to do.
by the way My english is not excellent so I'm sorry for my wrongs.