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I agree in our lessons we do.  Definitely in Priesthood/Relief Society .  . . . IMO not so much in Sacrament.  In SS . . .maybe.

I think your analysis is spot-on, PC. The hypocrites decrying the hypocrisy of the Saints would do better to tend to that massive beam sticking out of their own orbital socket.

Agreed.  We need more *people* in the Church—full stop.
Some of the articles on MormonHub lately remind me of the rameumptoms of old (“thank you, Lord, for not making me like those cretins over there!”).  Heck, even full-blown antis usually at least take the trouble to protest about how much they like Mormons.  

Do we need more pedophiles in our wards? If the article's author enthusiastically agrees that we do, then I'll agree with him that we need more homosexuals.
I think classifying members by their sins of choice is foolish and counterproductive, but whatever.

LDM, in most cases, calling pornography an "addiction" is a bastardization of the term. Very, very few individuals who use pornography have "severe trauma" upon stopping usage.
Typical withdrawal symptoms:
Cocaine: http://www.acadianaaddiction.com/addiction/cocaine/symptoms-signs-effects#Effects-of-Cocaine-Withdrawal
Caffeine: https://www.caffeineinformer.com/caffeine-withdrawal-symptoms-top-ten 
pornography/sex addiction: http://www.psychguides.com/guides/sex-addiction-symptoms-causes-and-effects/
 Someone can absolutely be a pornography addict, just like they can a gambling addict, a hoarder or any other host of addictions. But the large difference is that the addiction is in the mind.  Cocaine and caffeine are physical substances that actually change the body itself and when addicted to it the body in addition to the mind crave it.  Other addictions are where the mind alone craves the addiction.  People say pornography is more addicting than crack cocaine . . .totally false why b/c cocaine has a very real physical component where pornography does not.
I understand that we like to use the term addiction to scare people away from using pornography (if you use it once you will become addicted!!! gasp, horror, etc. it will totally destroy your life!!!).  But it honestly goes beyond that, using pornography is different than taking a cigarette puff and then being addicted to smoking.  IMO when there is no physical component to the addiction, blaming the behavior on dopamine receptors is just an excuse and in fact denies the very real power of Christ to change who we are inside.
Pornography use and why people do it . . .it's not hard, it's not complex . . .it's very, very simple, yet psychologist try to make it out to be more complex than it is-they get to write PhD studies on it and get paid to do it.  Individuals use pornography b/c it makes them feel good for a brief period of time-it allows them to escape from whatever pain, suffering, bad feelings they have at the time.  If done over a long enough time period it becomes an automatic habit.  And with any habit it takes a force of will to change and especially with a habit that you enjoy. B/c there is absolutely 0 physical addiction to pornography, it can be stopped in an instant. 
All it takes is the recognition that this habit is destructive to the soul and when that recognition, sinks deep into the heart, it will stop.  The reason why it takes this recognition is b/c the evil outcomes of pornography in general are not easy to see. Unless one has the spirit of discernment, the porn user easily could be your HT, your EQP, shoot it could even be your Bishop.  It rots the inner core without much visible outer effects.  Most "addictions" have very bad outcomes, gambling, smoking, cocaine, etc. etc.  It is very plainly obvious what those bad habits will destroy.
Pornography . . .not so much. Unless one is truly an addict, one can lead a perfectly normal life being "addicted" to pornography . . .that in my book is not addiction-it's a habit in sin. Calling it an "addiction" gives people an excuse "well I'm addicted to it I can't help it"  total utter hogwash.  No you like and lust after a sinful habit; there is nothing stopping you from doing it . . .you just like the sin.  When that full recognition happens, that the stake of one's soul is at risk . . . change will happen, just like it did with Alma, Saul, etc.  (Not that one needs to go to that level, but as a metaphor the change through Christ will happen). 
And honestly if we can't have that conversation that sometimes, in fact many times people like and enjoy whatever sin it is they are committing then I daresay we can't have conversation about Christ. B/c the whole Atonement, His very existence is about changing the natural man (which likes and enjoys sin) into a godly man (which abhors and hates sin).
In fact it is the reason why homosexuality, transgender, etc. are making headway into the Church b/c in many instances we as Saints are denying the Power of Christ to change our inner most being . . .b/c instead of Christ changing us we were "born that way" or we are "addicted" or there is some "thing" that is outside our control from which either only man can give us relief (in the form of pills-psysco-therapy, etc.) or which man cannot give us relief and we are stuck.
For many, a complete denial of Christ's Power. 
 
 

It used to be much of society was structured to teach boys how to become men and girls how to become women . . now it is all jacked up. 
Outside of the Church, I know of no institution that will know help me teach my son how to become a man and my daughters to become women.  And even inside the Church things are rapidly changing . . . .
See . . .what a complete weasel. This absolute BS idea that we can allow girls to become Eagle Scouts have a "parallel" program and still keep what makes BSA, BSA. What a lie. Everything in BSA is geared towards teaching boys how to become men and leaders of men.  To allow girls to obtain Eagle Scout means that we are no focusing on teaching girls to become men or we will cease to teach boys to become men b/c BSA will so drastically change the program over time to "fit the needs" of our female scouters. What a travesty . . .the requirements will be lowered, just like it has in every organization that sets out to be "gender inclusive". Simply b/c it is a fact of nature that boys/men are stronger, faster, more physical than girls/women . . .it's a fact.  And in order to ensure that women don't feel "left behind" any organization that is physical in nature inevitable dumbs down the physical standards just so the females won't feel excluded. And the sad thing is that any boy/man with half a brain knows this but just doesn't say it and eventually when the standards are dumbed down, Boy Scouts no longer becomes challenging . . .it just becomes a social club.  What a  . . .well I have not nice words for this piece of excrement.
And what's even more frustrating is one of the "Big Three" of Boy Scouts is a former Church Young Men General President, who voted for this policy change.  I've said it before, there is corruption and evilness . . .All is not well in Zion. Rather than taking a stand, BSA and the Church are bending to social justice warriors.  And yes, that is exactly what it is and it is not what I expect. And yes it is exactly what the SJWs want . . . . . one day, one day Christ will come; I hope it happens in my lifetime, 'cuz man otherwise I've got to deal with this crap for the next 50+ years . . .not my idea of a good time. I'm pretty positive in my lifetime we will see true persecution of saints and I'm not talking about "oh I just dislike you" or "I'm gonna get you fired from your job".  
The Church has had it so good for 100 years it doesn't know what persecution looks like and in the history of the world, true saints have always been persecuted.
 

For the vast majority of pornography users (in the Church) they don't have a desire to truly strive in this aspect of life as Christ would have them do.  They think they do, they'll make platitudes to it, they may even have burning testimonies, even very strong ones. It doesn't change all the good they might do in life or have done or will do. It doesn't change their testimony, it doesn't change that they can be Men of God.  There have been Prophets in the Bible who have had lust (some have given into it), have had pride, jealousy, or plenty of other weaknesses.  Having this weakness or desire for sin is part of this life's experience to understand how to overcome the natural man.   But at the end of the day, (especially for those who have the truth) we can't stand before God and say, "well I had an addiction, I couldn't help it" (i.e. the devil made me do it). Nope, not gonna happen.
34 Ye cannot say, when ye are brought to that awful crisis, that I will repent, that I will return to my God. Nay, ye cannot say this; for that same spirit which doth possess your bodies at the time that ye go out of this life, that same spirit will have power to possess your body in that eternal world.
Personally, I think it's gonna be really hard to stand before God at the last day and say "Lord, I did my best I had a real desire to live right".  "Did you know about the 10 commandments and live them?" "Yes with all my heart".  "What about #10?".  "All of them Lord."  "You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife; and you shall not desire your neighbor’s house, his field, his male servant, his female servant, his ox, his donkey, or anything that is your neighbor’s.”  "What about when I sent my Son and he proclaimed do not lust after a woman?" "Did you not know this commandment and did you not lust after strange women? by your usage of pornography"  "Well you see Lord, I was addicted, I couldn't stop . . .it wasn't my fault .. . but I truly do love your Son" "Then why did you deny His power to change you?" (silence).
As the very, very good brother above articulates, for those who are truly addicted (and even those who aren't truly addicted), when in this aspect of your life you have a real desire to follow Christ and obey His law.  Come Hell or High Water, you will do it, you will escape it.  You will cry out so mighty to God that He will inspire you to put in place mechanisms, programs, attitude changes, etc. You will do whatever is necessary relying upon Christ's redeeming blood to change your heart, your mind, your soul. He will change your soul to abhor sin.
And that change of heart must always be constant . . .if that change of heart ever reverts, you will fall back into old sinful habits. It is only through Him that the change can occur and continue to occur.

As someone who grew up playing video games and listening to rock music, I am not at all sure they are all that different from pornography. When I was younger, I laughed at and mocked those who said such things about popular music and video games. As a middle-aged man, I'm not laughing any more, and I'm not mocking. It's possible that I'm not actually as smart as I once believed I was.

I'm gonna hold off on bombarding you with teachings against masturbation...
This really impresses me.  The "being a man" part.  That used to mean something before.  It is sad that it doesn't mean anything anymore in the USA today.  My husband and I taught our kids what it means to be a man.  It's not something they learn from the environment anymore.
General Kelly gave this press conference yesterday about soldiers dying in the battlefield.  I was crying after his spiel (and I'm not the type to do this - I don't cry in testimonies, I don't cry watching movies, etc.).  Anyway, his speech about things that we used to hold sacred really stuck me.

I see many of the issues marriages have on this forum involve pornography.  A question was asked in another thread about how pornography can exist in other relationships and not have a negative impact.  The answer, really, is many (most?) people don't view pornography and masturbation the way LDS do, at least on the male side.  Pornography is normal for many males.  It starts at a young age behind the garage decades ago with a SEARS catalog looking at underwear advertisements with your friends.  It progresses from there.  Heck, even television alludes to sex and pornography or features actors with less than modest clothing.  It's just normal, culturally.
The same applies to masturbation.  It starts as a toddler.  Without someone telling you "this is bad, don't do this", you grow up thinking it's normal.  After all, it is "your" equipment.  I still haven't found anything in the church that says masturbation is bad (but I'm sure I'm about to be bombarded with it).  
It has been my experience that men and women view sex differently.  There is a physical and emotional aspect to sex and many men separate the two.  I can sit across the room with my wife, make eye contact, and have that emotional response.  It's an intimacy that can manifest anywhere, including sex.  Likewise, I could have sex and NOT feel that intimacy.  If I viewed porn or was unfaithful to my spouse, it wouldn't change the way I feel about her or affect my intimacy.  
What I feel it comes down to is respect and an understanding of the family unit.  I remain faithful to my wife for MANY reasons (beyond the fact that nobody else would have me).  I love her.  I respect her.  I'm committed to my family.  Those three things alone are probably what causes me to not even desire another woman.  I could probably list a million other reasons.  Society and culture are changing, though.  It's acceptable now or even encouraged, to put yourself first.  People are no longer fulfilled by family because they're taught to pursue more.  I believe people confuse fantasy with reality.  They view pornography or television where the illicit affair is romantic and want it in their life.  They want the fantasy to be real and they don't even realize they are pursuing it.  I could never have sex with my wife again and be just as committed to her years from now as I am today, with zero possibility that I would stray from our marriage.
None of that has anything to do with God, the church, or the Law of Chastity.  It has to do with character, integrity, and being a man.  
 

For the vast majority of pornography users (in the Church) they don't have a desire to truly strive in this aspect of life as Christ would have them do.  They think they do, they'll make platitudes to it, they may even have burning testimonies, even very strong ones. It doesn't change all the good they might do in life or have done or will do. It doesn't change their testimony, it doesn't change that they can be Men of God.  There have been Prophets in the Bible who have had lust (some have given into it), have had pride, jealousy, or plenty of other weaknesses.  Having this weakness or desire for sin is part of this life's experience to understand how to overcome the natural man.   But at the end of the day, (especially for those who have the truth) we can't stand before God and say, "well I had an addiction, I couldn't help it" (i.e. the devil made me do it). Nope, not gonna happen.
34 Ye cannot say, when ye are brought to that awful crisis, that I will repent, that I will return to my God. Nay, ye cannot say this; for that same spirit which doth possess your bodies at the time that ye go out of this life, that same spirit will have power to possess your body in that eternal world.
Personally, I think it's gonna be really hard to stand before God at the last day and say "Lord, I did my best I had a real desire to live right".  "Did you know about the 10 commandments and live them?" "Yes with all my heart".  "What about #10?".  "All of them Lord."  "You shall not covet your neighbor’s wife; and you shall not desire your neighbor’s house, his field, his male servant, his female servant, his ox, his donkey, or anything that is your neighbor’s.”  "What about when I sent my Son and he proclaimed do not lust after a woman?" "Did you not know this commandment and did you not lust after strange women? by your usage of pornography"  "Well you see Lord, I was addicted, I couldn't stop . . .it wasn't my fault .. . but I truly do love your Son" "Then why did you deny His power to change you?" (silence).
As the very, very good brother above articulates, for those who are truly addicted (and even those who aren't truly addicted), when in this aspect of your life you have a real desire to follow Christ and obey His law.  Come Hell or High Water, you will do it, you will escape it.  You will cry out so mighty to God that He will inspire you to put in place mechanisms, programs, attitude changes, etc. You will do whatever is necessary relying upon Christ's redeeming blood to change your heart, your mind, your soul. He will change your soul to abhor sin.
And that change of heart must always be constant . . .if that change of heart ever reverts, you will fall back into old sinful habits. It is only through Him that the change can occur and continue to occur.

I trully am sorry you are dealing with this @MadMaddy. Please don't blame yourself for any of your husband's actions. You are not too blame, and honestly I applaud your dedication to your marriage. We should all be so blessed to have somone fighting so hard for us. My advice to you is this. Pornography is a serious addiciton, that is used to fight uncomfortable and unpleasant feelings. Rather than finding healthy ways to fight these feelings (bad memories, boredom, loneliness, pain etc.) an addict uses porn. It's horrible. When you are truly addicted, it's like watching your life running on autopilot. You scream at yourself to stop and you don't. You remember all of the pain and hurt caused by doing it previously and it just doesn't matter. You are trapped. Fortunately there is a way out. Sometimes it takes a long time, but the Savior can take these things away and restore your control. You mentioned your husband had been doing well for a while when this started again. What changed? Why did he stop using the healthy mechanisms he set in place to protect himself? I know something I failed in on my own path to freedom was constantly taking away my safety devices once I felt like I was fine. This invariably led to me being an idiot again. Now I know that I'll never be able to trust myself alone on the internet again. That's not a bad thing! I had to let go of my pride, and accept that unlike many adults I can't be on the internet without backup. That means even though it's been sometime since I've had any problems, all of my devices, including my phone, will have reporting software until the day I die. I don't care if I'm 95 and haven't had any problems in 60 years, my internet devices will report everything that I'm viewing directly to my wife. Your husband has to come to the same realization. He will always need to protect himself in this area of his life. He can be healed, but one way Christ makes a man stronger is by showing him his weaknesses and how he can protect himself there. Christ saved me. He can save your husband too, but he has to fight! He can't say "oh well I have my phone all the time theres nothing I can do." There is something he can do! Real time reporting software works for me. There is something, I promise, out there that will work for him. Christ told us he has the power to save all men that turn to him. If Christ saved a proud, stubborn man like me he can save your husband too. But he has to want it. Sorry for the length of my post but I truly feel for you sister.

Exactly, if you really want to solve the problem you do what is necessary to do so. Matthew 5:30
30 And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.

I have a couple of friends who view pornography and have faithful and functional relationships with their wives.  The wives are fine with it too.  Of course, these guys are not religious.  Yes, you can view pornography and not be addicted to it.  Addiction is a different thing than viewing pornography like it's just another show on TV. 
So, how are the wives just fine with it?  Well, the difference between the religious and non-religious is they don't know (or they don't believe) that watching pornography is a bad thing.  The rattling in their conscience has long since been silenced.  So, there's not much conflict in there and the family has simply accepted these things as normal.  As a religious person, I believe that the rattling will eventually surface (the light of Christ can still shine if given a chance) and the anguish will commence.  It might not be in this life, but definitely in the life to come.  But saying this to the non-religious will simply get you laughed out of the park.

It sounds like you're really logical, which helps.  This is why I view infidelity the way I do.  There are few things that affect a marriage the way infidelity and abuse do.  Know that it is MY belief that infidelity doesn't change the way he thinks about YOU so much, it changes the way you think about HIM.  Many men view sex differently.  Same with pornography.  
-also, there is no defense.  I could tell you childhood stories that would curdle your blood.  I've never cheated on my spouse and devote my life to ensuring my wife and children won't have to experience the same.
You'll get through this.  

MadMaddy,
The above is an example of advice in which to take caution in.  There are NO cookie cutter people, everyone is dynamically different, so are their personal hells and afflictions. In situations such as these, counsel is best sought of from heavenly father, human reasoning is simply not enough to grasp such things anymore than human reasoning is enough to defeat such things for those who are afflicted by them.  Remember, we literally live in the deciever's playground, his most favorite and prized goal is to destroy marriages, for when he destroys a marriage, he destroys a family, when he destroys a family, he has within his grasp the bitter souls now divided and broken. So, such advice above is inherently dangerous and serves the deceiver's goals, not heavenly fathers. Of course, the solution is not easily reached either, which is why I said to seek the answers from heavenly father instead, the authority on all things. Your bishop can "assist", but still, such guidance must come from heavenly father.  I'm sure the poster I have quoted means well and has no ill intent, but you don't go to Mc Donald's for open heart surgery, you don't go to Subway to have your transmission worked on, and you don't go to human beings for answers on what to do when your marriage is in crisis. I would challenge you to spend some time in the temple. Ask friend's to take your names to the temple for prayer. This is a very complex problem, you need the "Expert of ALL" to handle this, ask for it. 

A lack of emotional connection which almost always extends back into childhood (long before meeting their eventual spouse) and can only be addressed by that individual.  The addiction and addiction driven behaviors also fuel the lack of real connection and damage/break any existent real connections.  The other spouse is in NO way at fault for any of that behavior.  A key part of addiction therapy is the addict learning to surrender the false promises offered by the addiction object (drugs/alcohol/porn/etc) and replace it with a real connections to real people.  But again, that healthy change has to be driven by the recovering addict and no one else. 

I don't like a lot about Trump, but there is plenty I do like and I one of the things is that he isn't afraid to invoke God nor say this country is a Christian nation with a Christian heritage.

Oh I totally agree with that.  However behind every sin is a reason why, sometimes it is important to know the reason why, sometimes it is not.  The ultimate responsible party is the person who commits the bad behavior regardless of the reasons why . . .however we would be foolish to not at least try to understand why-and more and more studies are demonstrating that the reason why individuals get into addictive bad habits in many, many instances deals with a lack of emotional connection to other individuals.
Why in many instances to people get drunk . . .b/c they'd rather drown away their sorrows in a bottle of beer. Why do some men use pornography, b/c they'd rather deal in a fantasy land that makes them feel (even if only temporarily) good vs. thinking about the problems either in the life, marriage, work, etc.  Addictions in large part deal with an individuals inability to deal with the reality of situation and to develop healthy coping habits for problems.  Many times the addiction starts at a low point in someone's life with an inability to control or deal with a particular situation . . .if they haven't learned appropriate and healthy methods of dealing with it over time they can develop an addiction so that every time they feel a certain way they crave a "hit" to help them cope with it. 
This in no way is blaming the bad behavior on someone else, it's simply recognition that addiction is complex and that to break the chains of an addiction requires an extreme amount of force of will and God's grace through the Atonement for that individual to #1 fully stop the addiction and then #2 fix what is broken inside and then to develop appropriate methods to deal with the problems in life.
I'm sure there are people out there who just enjoy the addiction . . .but my guess is that for most destructive, unhealthy addictions something like above occurs.

To the bold that is false.  The problem most women do not understand with pornography is that it's not their problem!!!! Say it, repeat it, believe it.  What is their problem is if they are not being a wife (and being a wife and being a husband are roles one plays).  So if a wife is not being a wife in the marriage then that is a problem and many times (in fact I think most times) men use pornography to make up for a perceived or real lack of emotional/relationship connection in their marriage.
I would add a word of caution "making him feel like #1" is vastly different that "he is number #1".  One is a statement of fact and the other is a statement of emotion.  If the emotion does not meet the fact then he will feel the fact isn't true, if the fact does not meet the emotion then he will know regardless of anything you do that the fact isn't true.
The fact that you are asking if you should just end things tells me that the emotion and the fact do not line up. If your husband is #1 in your life, you wouldn't even begin to ask the question. 
Regardless though, I will say absolutely kudos on trying so hard to make him feel #1.
I'll also give you the dirty secret about any addiction that most people in addiction don't admit.  If you truly want to quit, you will quit...come Hell or High Water you will quit. All the therapy, 12 steps, etc. all those things are is a mechanism to get people to the point where they truly want to quit in their deepest most inner soul.  Once they get to the point where they truly in their heart desire to quit, it will happen.  The main mechanism by which individuals have this change of heart, i.e. a change in desire to no longer do sin, is by the Atonement of Jesus Christ.
Christ's Atonement isn't just about Christ taking upon himself our sins.  It is the literal power to change one's heart to no longer desire to sin.
To your question about should you leave.  Ultimately the decision to marry, divorce, etc. is between you, him and God.  I will say that even though people throw Addiction into justifiable reasons for divorce. No modern prophet, apostle, stake president, bishop, etc. has ever said that addiction to pornography is a justifiable reason for divorce.  The only two justifiable reasons are adultery and abuse.
Finally,  do not act like a mother to your husband with regards to this issue.  Tell him it is his problem, he will be held accountable before God for his actions and addictions that he has, you will support him in his battle to overcome it, but ultimately you are not the responsible party-he is.  He needs to act like a man, own his problem and then through the grace of God and through His infinite Atonement with the help of God and Christ overcome it.

Another reason to thank God for Trump being President.  Now if we can only get the Senate to do their jobs!  2018 is coming up.  Primary the swamp out!
 
http://dailysignal.com/2017/08/10/trump-appoints-more-judges-in-200-days-than-obama-bush-clinton/
 

I wonder how hard it would be to get a billboard put up nearby...
 

Sounds a little bit like you might be going through a bit of a mid-life crisis (it can come at earlier ages for women).
Individuals experiencing a mid-life crisis may feel:[12]
a deep sense of remorse for goals not accomplished a fear of humiliation among more successful colleagues longing to achieve a feeling of youthfulness need to spend more time alone or with certain peers a heightened sense of their sexuality or lack thereof ennui, confusion, resentment or anger due to their discontent with their marital, work, health, economic, or social status ambitious to right the missteps they feel they have taken early in life[13 There are plenty of things you can do that still allow you to explore, grow and achieve without doing something sinful. Consider yourself extremely blessed that you have committed no major sins in your life. Sinning only leads to a path that you will wish you hadn't taken. I never went through a wild phase in my early years.
But what I do find interesting as I get older is that just about everyone who did go through a wild phase, pretty much stops if they want to have any semblance of a decent life.  Generally those who don't stop are using it to cover up facing up to their real problems and overcoming them.
You can absolutely live an enjoyable fun, filled life without sinning yet at the same time without acting like you are in church 24/7.  Life is meant to be enjoyed, so enjoy it.  A quick example, my only real "wild" side was that as a teenager every now and then I would go to rock concerts-U2, 3rd Eye Blind . .. etc. (they could be a little raunchy with some drugs)  I went on my mission and when I came back none of those things really appealed to me. 
Now that I'm a little older, I actually like going to rock concerts . . . but I'm very selective about where I go and what I do.  The bands I see don't have any swearing in their lyrics, they don't talk about sex,drugs, rock&roll. They might swear a bit on stage, generally not too much (thankfully). Generally speaking it's just some good heavy metal with some very talented musicians, that can really rock out, they sell alcohol (but I don't drink and I've never seem someone totally hammered at these things); people smoke outside (I've never smelled marijuana at these places).  Generally speaking, I could take my kids and I wouldn't feel bad (it would be too late for them).
So maybe you just need a change of pace.  For a flavor, think .. . ah love it:
 

Sounds a little bit like you might be going through a bit of a mid-life crisis (it can come at earlier ages for women).
Individuals experiencing a mid-life crisis may feel:[12]
a deep sense of remorse for goals not accomplished a fear of humiliation among more successful colleagues longing to achieve a feeling of youthfulness need to spend more time alone or with certain peers a heightened sense of their sexuality or lack thereof ennui, confusion, resentment or anger due to their discontent with their marital, work, health, economic, or social status ambitious to right the missteps they feel they have taken early in life[13 There are plenty of things you can do that still allow you to explore, grow and achieve without doing something sinful. Consider yourself extremely blessed that you have committed no major sins in your life. Sinning only leads to a path that you will wish you hadn't taken. I never went through a wild phase in my early years.
But what I do find interesting as I get older is that just about everyone who did go through a wild phase, pretty much stops if they want to have any semblance of a decent life.  Generally those who don't stop are using it to cover up facing up to their real problems and overcoming them.
You can absolutely live an enjoyable fun, filled life without sinning yet at the same time without acting like you are in church 24/7.  Life is meant to be enjoyed, so enjoy it.  A quick example, my only real "wild" side was that as a teenager every now and then I would go to rock concerts-U2, 3rd Eye Blind . .. etc. (they could be a little raunchy with some drugs)  I went on my mission and when I came back none of those things really appealed to me. 
Now that I'm a little older, I actually like going to rock concerts . . . but I'm very selective about where I go and what I do.  The bands I see don't have any swearing in their lyrics, they don't talk about sex,drugs, rock&roll. They might swear a bit on stage, generally not too much (thankfully). Generally speaking it's just some good heavy metal with some very talented musicians, that can really rock out, they sell alcohol (but I don't drink and I've never seem someone totally hammered at these things); people smoke outside (I've never smelled marijuana at these places).  Generally speaking, I could take my kids and I wouldn't feel bad (it would be too late for them).
So maybe you just need a change of pace.  For a flavor, think .. . ah love it:
 

GSA in general is a very leftist/socialistic organization.  You've got to get with the program, social justice is for anyone who is not white or male or protestant. "Social Justice" is really about upending the entire society built by WASPs (white, anglo-saxon, protestant males) and transforming it into something else.  "Social justice" is anti-white and anti-male and anti-Christian.
It's unfortunate b/c we've had it so good for so long in this country we have actually forgotten what the rest of the world looks like (and in general it aint' too pretty). We will find out soon enough. Ce la via.