Wow! New to this forum and what a thread.
i too felt the same way about the garments. I hated them, loathed them, called them every name in the book.
I joined the church after I was married, went to the temple after first daughter was born. Wore garments for about a year then decided it was unnecessary 24/7. I live in Texas where it’s hot and humid ALL THE TIME. I don’t dress immodest, I just didn’t want extra layers. For me, I too felt bad not wearing them. I went to my bishop and he just simply told me to read the book Believe in Christ. (I think that’s the name). I read about half, prayed, and decided to stick it out. Found the fabric that worked best, prayed and here I am.
its a hard thing to do, I am very empathetic.
i would just ask you a couple of questions
1). Are you looking for justification of your actions? If so, then pray...it’s the only honest answer that matters.
2). Be ok with what apparently is going on, others judgements. Why anyone but your husband know when you do or do not wear garments is questionable. Who cares? I have found that when I see others disobedience, I am the jugemental one. Maybe you are feeling a tad bit guilty?? Don’t know, just a thought. I did. I would look at others and see them not wearing them and feel my heart swell in being right. Ha!!
3). Garments are personal. How you wear them, when you wear them is all you. Be ok with it. Be ok with the consequences. Are you ok with the consequences? Be them good or negative? And there will be for all of us, right? Be ok, be at peace.