I've written a long detailed column, I was agonizing over posting it. I'm not a Mormon though I'm a Christian, it was all explaining the difficulties of my long far love for this devout Mormon girl I've loved since I was 12. I'm 30 now I just hesitate cause I know the ecclesiastical issues are severe. My I'm a head case this is a pre-post to my very long post just to check the temperature of response. If you can't tell I've issues of confidence.