Carnal

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  1. There were six of us. Three boys and three girls. My father raped and beat my mom while mentally breaking her to the point of attempted suicide and she ended up abandoning us to the psychotic whims of my father for ten years. We connected with her again while she went through another turbulent relationship with another man until she met with another who she married and is now somewhat stabilized while battling manic depression and anxiety. I myself have been struggling with apathetic suicidal tendencies as well as schizophrenia and psychosis. I'm quite frankly amazed that I've been able to hold down a fifteen year relationship with a beautiful woman and am capable of running a corporation without blowing my top lol. And yet I'm still unable to maintain contact with my remaining siblings. Our own family lives have made us drift farther apart, but I'm thinking it's more that we came to know each other all too well and we don't want our kids rubbing off on each other. We are all successful in our own right minus the youngest brother who is on his second backslide with methamphetamines. I fear this time it might kill him since he was diagnosed with HIV in 2003. Hes dropped weight dramatically in just a month. My point is, that as much as we want to love them, some people are past the point of the love and relationships we envision them in. But we can continue to love them.