I am panicking and need some advice or feedback if anyone has any.... my husband and I broke the law of chastity before we got sealed and we did not repent. We did not fully have intercourse but we came as close as you can get. I was extremely depressed at the time and I think in my depression my feelings were so numbed (on top of me being a convert) helped me internalize it and believe that it wasn’t bad because we didn’t actually have sex and so are fine to just repent to God and not our bishop. It’s been 2 years later and we have not gone to the temple since our sealing day for this very reason of us feeling EXTREME guilt after the fact. Our recommends expired and we can’t go in there and lie again and we are feeling the weight of what we have done on our shoulders. We plan on repenting as soon as we can build up the strength... I just feel like such a sham and I know my husband feels the same. He blessed our baby girl etc all while we have never repenting of this. I just feel so dirty and awful. I guess I’m just asking for advice if this has happened to anyone else here or to anyone you know? Do you know what the punishment was? I’m praying so hard that it won’t lead to excommunication... if our families found this out I would be beyond embarrassed and devastated. I know I know, that is not what matters, it’s between us and the Lord. I guess I just want to know what I should expect. As a convert I have never had to confess to the bishop before and up until lately I really didn’t realize how much of a vital part it is to something like this. We are already fully aware of our actions so please no judgements...
