Dee23

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  1. Good Morning to all. My name is Depree and I am single mom of 3 children. Israel almost 5, Emmanuel almost 4 and Serenity 7 months. I've been inactive for about 2 years and this year, I decided that I wanted to be happy and that my children deserved to be happy. I find my happiness in attend church, reading scriptures and praying with my family. I am trying to get back into the swing of things. My older son, Israel dislikes primary--so much so he yells screams and threatens me until I just leave. It's hard for me to balance sitting with him and then keeping my little Serenity from crawling around (eating on everyone's shoes). Emmanuel loves beinga Sunbeam and cries when he thinks we aren't going to church. So shine on , Emmanuel Shine on! We have scriptures and I try to read to them from the scriptures, but they don't seem interested. So we just talk about the Book of Mormon Prophets Like Nephi and I try to make the Scriptures come alive for them. I thought about getting that book , Behold Our Little Ones (?)just helping them learn again the basic principles of the gospel. We pray at night and before meals. I think I feel like I am a failure, because I was so active before--and full of spririt and now I am struggling so much. I work a lot and so I am trying to find out a good time to have FHE. They see their Dad on the Weekens so Monday would be okay, just short and sweet. I think I am full of a mixture of emotions as I feel like I have failed my boys by not attending church or living the gospel. I feel a lot of guilt and shame for that. Thank you all for letting me vent.
  2. What I find to helpful in the midst of life's craziness, is just be still and feel how much love Heavenly Father surrounds you with. In a small voice He says "I am here." I pray that things will get better for you. That you will heed His will. In time things will become brighter; although it seems so dark today. Hugs
  3. I too am a convert to the church --and I've realized the internal joy and peace that the gospel brings--there's so much hope amidst darkness and learning lessons in every struggle. The gospel has really given me perspective. Heavenly Father's love is made manifested to us in so many ways! Welcome, welcome to you! Hugs!
  4. :DHello to you all! My dear son, Israel age 4 , has asked me many times if I could help him learn how to read! Yikes! I am a full time student and work part time and am a single mom, but highly value education and I have a strong desire for my children to love learning. I was wondering if there is anything that I could do to help him. He know's his letters, their sounds and does some blending--but I want something that's fun for him and exciting! Thank you!
  5. Hugs for you. I left the church last year and did a 360. I stayed away from the church because I believed that I had and still do have so many bad habits, that I wasn't even worthy to go. Then as I started to pray and seek out His word--I realized that the opportunity to go to church is a gift to all of us--to provide us with fellowship and spiritual healing. Two weeks ago I attended church for the first time in a long time and I was so overcome and overjoyed with the spirit. I too have tatoos--and thought that people would judge me for them, I don't regret getting them--and my friend told me " You know, I don't care if you have a tatoo, there are bigger fish to fry in your life right now." And I thought that she was right. Through Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, you can be healed from the inside out. He loves you so much and will one day provide a woman for you , who will accept and love you --for your innerself. I have found out though, that the acceptance of myself and getting myself healed through the repentance process--then I will be afforded a companion that Heavenly Father has set out for me to be with. Anyway, please pick up your scriptures, whisper a prayer or anywhere anytime, cry out to Heavenly Father. You will be in my prayers.
  6. Dee23

    Regrets

    This past year has been a struggle for me and my family especially my dear children:Israel and Emmanuel. Their father and I were divorced last year and I am regretting it deeply---as at the time I was deep into my own selfishness and did not think about how the children would be affected. I am currently with someone right now, who is not very supportive in many things that I do--attending church, going to school, working---(as I am the only one who is employed in the home). Sometimes I feel stuck and am not sure what to do. My ex-husband and I have both expressed sorrow for the choices that we made and have thought about working it out, even though it would be a long road of healing, forgiveness, and the re establishment of trust. Even though I cherish the relationship I have with my current boyfriend I have realized, that it's not a healthy one at all. I have just had a lot on my heart and just need to be able to vent/talk somewhere where I know that I can find comfort and peace. Thank you everyone for listening. Depree
  7. Dee23

    With Heavy Heart

    My heart is very heavy as I and my family have experienced a traumatic year. I am amother of two young sons, Israel and Emmanuel. They are so precious and are a blessing to me in my life, and my daugther Serenity is going to be due in June of this year. Last year , my husband and I divorced, causing a devestation in my life that I have never felt before. I have done some things since then that I am very ashamed of, and have gotten excommunicated. I have not always been a member, but long enough to know that the truth lies within the Gospel of Jesus Christ and I cannot, no matter how much, I have tried, deny or hide that truth. I am living with my boyfriend Jason now, who is amazing, but detests the church. I am afraid to go back--I want to build a life with him and our family yet, deep down, I long to go to church and read the scriptures. I don't know why I am so afraid. I know that I would need to talk to the bishop, and would strongly dislike having to meet secretly with my visiting teachers or anything like that. I am tired of being so stressed all the time with full time school work and raising kids. I am tired of yelling at them--and being cross with them, and I know where my real freedom lies is in the Gospel. I know that I can find comfort there. I love the song Where Can I Turn For Peace? It's so powerful and really comforts me. I am not sure exactly what I need right now, but I need not to be afriad yet, there's something holding back. Thanks for listening everyone. Depree
  8. Thanks everyone for the replies. I know that I need to keep this between my husband and I. The fact is though , that my husband is unable to live in our home and is living with my parents and my uncle. My uncle is like my husband's best friend and told him about him being denied the sacrament. My uncle then came to me and asked me why. I told him the exact same thing about the Bishop being a judge in Israel and so forth. It's just a sticky situation and my uncle , husband and parents live together. Thanks again, Depree
  9. Thanks everyone for the replies! I will definitely look into those resources! I will definitely let my dad know as well--as I know he's interested in the church...and so is my mother (yayayayayay!) Again I really appreciate everyone's responses!! D in WA
  10. Please help me understand something. I've been a member of the church for almost 8 years and my life has truly changed because of the gospel. I am the only member of my family. I am an African American woman and my parents are African American as well. My father doesn't understand why, as a child he couldn't join the LDS church because of his being African American. I am not sure what the exact specifics are. I am just wondering to help explain this to my father. Thanks... Dee23 in WA
  11. Hi there! I have been a member of the church for almost 8 years . One thing that I have been told and always will remember is that the church is perfect but the people aren't. It's hard--going to church hearing others talking--and chattering--but I believe if in your heart you desire to strong to hear the word, you will hear it. Example--my dear children almost 2 and almost 3. They can't , won't, don't sit still. Anyway. I was walking around , and around I wasn't hearing anything for a while and then I heard something over the loud speaker/intercom that just touched my heart. I know that I am in the right place and the right time and that I will be blessed for that. So will you.
  12. Hi all-- My name is Depree and I have been a memeber of the LDS church for almost 8 years. Right now my husband are having our fair share of issues and recently because of them--the Bishop told him that he was unable to take the Sacrament. I understand this. My uncle (non-member) wonders how anyone has the authority to deny anyone take the sacrament. His siting for this is when Jesus had the Last Supper, he didn't deny Peter the Sacrament--even though Jesus knew that he was going to betray him. So any ideas of what I could tell my uncle? Thanks all, D in WA
  13. Hi there! I love this site and I've only been searching it for 15 minutes! I am a convert to the church almost 8 years ago this April. It's been awesome--very trying but I am changed. I have two awesome children Israel almost 3 and Emmanuel almost 2 and a quiet nerdy , fun love husband Mathew. Right now our marriage is in turmoil. He cannot stay in our home because of a domestic violence issue against my dear son Israel. He's always been angry but never knew how bad it was until this instant. He's deciding to get the help that he needs so that he can come home and join our family again. It's amazing what the Lord does. Right now is a very trying time for me--finding a job, and sending my children to daycare. I was promised through personal revelation that if I continue to teach my children the gospel and read and pray..then I will be okay! I am glad that I can find a place where I can find the suppor that I need!
  14. Hi there! The Lord KNOWS the DESIRES of YOUR heart. He knows when it is time for you to join the church. It took me three different times to have encounters with LDS friends and the missionaries before I joined the church. If you have prayed earnestly and hard to save your marriage then try to save it. The Lord will provide away for you . He will not lead you astray. My husband and I are going through much marital turmoil (He cannot stay in our home , because of a domestic violence issue). I have wanted to give up, walk out and sometimes even die. Then I remember him pleading and bleeding in the Garden to fight this battle for me. He's already won it. I just have to let him lead me to victory .He will do the same for you. It will take time and it's not easy. Pray for your dear wife. Her heart may soon be softened. Depree
  15. Hi there! My name is Depree and I love children. They are such blessings from the Lord! My friend and I joke saying that we have to have children now are biological clock is ticking! I am only 23 myself and I have two boys Israel (almost 3) and Emmanuel (almost 2). I tell my husband that I desire to have another child so badly... Then I have to take things into consideration My husband has prayed about it and does not feel it's time. Our present family situation it would be very stressful adding another little one to our fold. I just have to listen to the desires of GOD's heart. It's hard sometimes. The time will come when you and your hubby can bring more spirits into the world. Enjoy the little one you have!
  16. I am a newbie to and also have a hard time sharing my testimony! I am glad that you have found a place that you are comfortable doing it! God Bless!! Welcome!