I was involved with a guy who was not LDS, hI was completely oblivious to physical intimacy and inexperienced before I was involved with him and I started changing little by little, seeing myself drift from family, from church and the spirit. I am not blaming this on him whatsoever, but I am saying this could happen to anyone. I was involved in heavy petting and kept excusing myself and after a while the spirit withdrew from me.
I am applying to college soon, I'm so guilty, when my stake president came to visit. I spilled my heart out to him because I had no one else to turn to. My father would be devastated and completely shocked to hear of my transgressions. I want to humble myself, but I don't know where to start.
I was thinking of writing him a letter because I cannot seem to utter those words.
Would he consider this as a bishop or as a father?
If I told him at home, would he not regard my need to keep this matter private?
Or would a letter be completely informal?
I just don't know where to start. I really don't want to tell my whole family.
My stake president told me I have to tell my father because I am applying to LDS colleges and there are two interviews and my dad needs to know about this.
I want to demonstrate integrity, but I have no idea what angle to view it from.
PLEASE HELP ME. I'm desperate for words of advice. I have no one to turn to