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Hello, I am a recent convert and not sure about a lot of things regarding mormon culture. Specifically Home and Visiting Teaching. My problem is best understood after a short introduction. Yes i am a convert, but also someone who suffers from depression and low self esteem. Through all the crap that has been my life, i have become a fighter. Someone who can be sure of herself and fight her own battles. But lately i have become worn down, as sometimes happens. I have several callings in the church, Visiting teaching(Which is freaking sweet, i have an awesome companion who is showing me the ropes and lovely sisters to visit) and as a YSA leader (Ugh). This being said, i still am lacking knowledge, so maybe i'm obsessing over nothing. Okay, now to the problem. I feel abandoned by my visiting and home teachers. I've only seen either pair once or twice, and none at all in the last 2 months. We have a fairly small branch, so its not like they won't see me. I guess the problem is that i'm not thought of. And this is tearing me up inside. I feel unloved, i know its stupid and creepy and weird, but i feel unwanted. I can't sleep from thinking about it, and sometimes i start to cry and can't seem to stop...(Its the combination of this and family issues). It certainly doesn't help my self-esteem. I mean i know i'm not a perfect and can come off as aggressive, but i don't know if i can fight anymore. I've fought for so much in my life, and i'm still a weak person who isn't worth it. I'm not sure if this is a battle that i can even win. Any words of comfort or advice is appreciated.

Hello Everyone, My name is Ginger. I am a single mother of two children. 8 & 14, at this time, however, next year they will be older. I am a professional freelance writer, I work from home and today is one of my chosen days off. I figured that I'd look around to see what type of LDS websites were out there and found all ya'll! I joined the church in 1979, when I was 19 years old. The sister missionaries began teaching me on a Monday and I was baptized that next Thursday. For seven years, the church was my whole life... Then something happened, it is called Gossip and it must obviously took a down-hill race. I was confused and terribly hurt by the telling of things that were not true to begin with. I walked away and no one, no other members ever came to even see about me or talk to me. Not my home teachers, visiting teachers or friends, not a single person came... That was 1986. Things have been hard, but they have always been hard. However, I do know that the church itself is true and all the prophets are ordained of our Heavenly Father. I do believe that the teachings of the church are true no matter how weak individual humans may be... It's been awhile, but I'm on my way back. So, now here I am... Please, Be good too me, as I always do my best to always be good to others and my heart is terribly broken... Ginger