@CommanderSouth, you remind me an awful lot of 25-years-ago me, with all the quest to know, and unassailable doubts, and taking queues about humanity from works of fiction and all.  I came within a few credit hours of getting a minor in philosophy trying to figure out what I believed.   Here's how I resolved things: Now, a quarter of a century later, I'm still going strong.  (I still take queues about humanity from scifi though.  A good author can have a lot to say about the nature of hum