I am glad I found this thread-I just found this forum. I have been a lifelong member of the church-up until a few years ago I highly relied on other people's testimonies but realized a few years ago that I did not really have my own. I have been searching and searching and cannot find it. I have talked to a couple of my bishops about it, have done what they have said, and still nothing. I am still active, I mainly go because my husband goes-he has a position in the bishopric . I also have a calling and I don't want to bail on people, its just not me. But I SO don't want to be there. I don't feel any spirit at all, and I feel its useless to go.
My ward is strange-there are alot of bad feelings there, and quite a few cliques and alot of gossip. I know that we are just supposed to go for ourselves, but I am already questioning things and all that other stuff just adds to it. Also I have a daughter who is special needs (but looks completely normal-you would not know it) and there are some playgroups and they never do include us, and that hurts.
I am at my wits end. I have prayed and read scriptures, etc........done everything I have been told, and nothing.
