Ok thanks everyone for replying.
I am worried about calling him again cause I'm worried to hear what the answer is. If I found out that I'd have to wait till April or even longer I'm hoping that I would be able to wait. I want to be fully ready before I go back out but I feel guilty whenever I hear a mission story, whenever i go to a farewell or a homecoming. I just feel guilty for coming home early. I feel that I could have stayed out and repented of my sin while I was out there. I just feel that I got discouraged learning a new language and the whole missionary culture that I gave up and went home. I don't want that to happen again when i go back out. I want to go back as ready as possible and serve to my fullest ability and do my best while I'm out there. I know that I will have no regrets for going on a mission but I also know that I will regret it if I never go on a mission, no matter what my reason was.
I have two older brothers, one didn't go on a mission and one did. My brother who didn't go on a mission has done lots of things that I'm sure he regrets, it seems like he's wasted a lot of his life doing simple things while trying to find his way, now he's 26 and has found a place in the air force and has gotten his life on track. I have another brother got home about a year and a half ago and he's happily married and is going to school and has decided on his career. I want to be like him, I know that I will be richly blessed and will grow a lot by going on a mission. I love both of my brothers dearly but I wouldn't want to follow my oldest brother's path.
I'm not sure if that is a bad reason to go on a mission, is it wrong to want to go on a mission so I can receive blessings from it? It's not the only reason but right now i feel that it's the biggest reason i want to go back out. It seems to me like I'm a little kid telling my dad that I won't do a job or something unless i get a reward after.
With this girl, I'm not worried about her holding me back from going on a mission, it's quite the opposite, i now want to go on a mission even more cause i know if i get back I will be worthy to marry someone like her, but this is not the only reason i have for going on a mission.
Being able to marry a certain girl is not the only reason i want to go on a mission, it is one of the reasons, but i wanted to go on a mission before i even met her. I want to be out there to serve and to work my hardest and bring as many people to the knowledge of the gospel as i can. I'm not expecting her to still be available when I come home, I am hoping that I'll be able to find a women like her who will be a great source of spiritual strength and who i will be able to trust my life with.
For missionaries who come home early, is having them wait a full year the usual time? When i first came home from my mission my stake president was thinking it'd only take me a couple of months if not a couple of weeks for me to be able to head back out there. Then i was kept in the dark since I have made it clear since I've come home that i want to go back out if possible. I know that I am going to go out when i am ready and when the Lord wants me too but it's hard to wait for so long. I just feel like my life has been on hold for far too long. It has already been on hold for over a year since I got my first mission call. I'm just having troubles with waiting for so long. I just wish i could be doing something right now that seemed worthwhile and where i wouldn't feel that all of my time is being wasted. I just work and go home, and that's it.
Since you're a mission leader i have some quick questions for you if you don't mind, where are you serving? Do you have any missionaries in your field who have come home early and then came back out? What advice do you have that i should do before going back out? I know that every mission is different but there has to be something that you could have seen all of your missionaries doing before they went out that would have greatly benefited them.
Again thanks for all of your answers!
