Drey0287

I'm a little new at this but I've had something that has been bothering me and I don't know what to do.... I've always had a very strong faith and testimony. I knew exactly what I wanted in life and did everything I could to accomplish it. I had kind of a rough childhood so I knew I wanted something more. When I was 18 I found the guy of my dreams and went away to college when I was 20 to Utah (at the University of Utah). During my 1st year there....I had it all. Everything I have always wanted in life I had. A great guy, AMAZING roommates and friends, a wonderful education. And then I went home for the summer. I came back for my second year and everything fell to pieces. The guy I loved and thought I was going to marry ended up finding someone else.....my 2 best friends that were like family to me stabbed me in the back and they turned all my friends against me. It was a horrible and lonely time. The only thing that kept me going was school. I threw myself into my schoolwork and tried not to focus on my horrible personal problems. But it seemed like everything just got worse and worse.......the friends I knew and loved were accusing me of things I never did and never ever would do. I felt attacked and just....horrible. Throughout this time, I continued going to church. I prayed, I fasted, I read scriptures, I enrolled in Institute.....trying to show the Lord that I was trying to do the right thing in spite of my problems. But......nothing ever changed. If anything, it all got worse. I ended up graduating from college and moving back home to California last year because nothing was keeping me in Utah anymore. Sad too, because I loved Utah. But I still find myself picking up the pieces of what happened in Utah. I never wanna say that the Lord didn't hear me in my pleas.....because I know he heard me.....I just don't understand why after everything I did to try to show the Lord that I was trying to stay obedient, he didn't bless me with something good in my personal life. It seems at this point, whatever I pray for...the opposite happens. I'm still attending Church on a regular basis, but in my home ward....not the Single's Ward. For some reason, I can't bring myself to go to the Single's Ward. Part of me wants to, but something is stopping me from doing it. It's kind of a fear I guess. I'm VERY active in my home ward. I have a calling, I've given talks, I attend all my meetings every Sunday.....but I just feel like I'm doing something wrong by being in the home ward when I'm single and 23. I wish I could get over my weird fear of the Single's Ward. Everybody in my home ward really believes that the Single's Ward would be the answer to my prayers but I just....can't bring myself to do it. How do I get over my Shaken faith & Fear??? I've prayed soooo hard about trying to move on from everything bad that happened.....but I can't seem to heal. My boyfriend who was the guy of my dreams ended up marrying that girl he found after me, my 2 best friends that stabbed me in the back ended up marrying eachother!......everything I want to happen...the opposite happens. And I'm afraid my life is going to continue being.... ....one giant unanswered prayer. I wanna have faith. I wanna be positive......I just don't know what to do..... if anyone has some advice or counsel, it would be appreciated.

I know I get the most out of lessons and talks when people apply the lesson to everyday situations or share their experiences with the topic. If it gets TO scripture heavy then I tend to get confused. Either apply the lesson to everyday life, or get a discussion going in the class about other peoples experiences with the topic. That way, people can also learn from eachother. you can go to lds.org for more suggestions on the lesson. My mom went through the same thing. Had never gave a lesson or anything before and then she was called to be the 2nd Counselor in the Young Womens presidency and was terrified to give a lesson on Fast Sunday. But she did great and so will you! :)

I REALLY need some advice. Last year, in my junior year of college, I met a guy who fell head over heels in love with me. He WASN'T a member of the church but he became my best friend. I didn't have any Romantic feelings for him but I still cared for him. Anyway, I had to let him down and it turned out REALLY bad. He couldn't even be around me. He said he was so heartbroken and felt like I "led him on" which I know I didn't. Anyway, he started dating my best friend/roommate. Which to me was a big stab in the back because I really cared about him, I just knew he wouldn't be able to take me to the temple some day, and thats what I really wanted. I had been through so much with this guy and my roommate was being completely insensitive to it. So I ended the friendship with her. Now, I lost BOTH of them. Its been 7 months since all this happened (and they are still together) and I can't shake the anger I have. I have tried to reach out to both of them to make things better. My roommate still doesn't get what she did wrong, and the guy is FURIOUS with me. He pretended to be nice to me just to get me thinking we were friends again and then BOOM he turned on me and said he was just being nice to "lead me on" and get me back. Now I'm graduating from college in 3 weeks and I really want to make things right because I really miss our old friendship(even though I know things wont be the same) and know I didn't handle things correctly. I've been praying about it for a long time but I haven't seemed to have gotten any answers or impressions. Yesterday at Easter, I reached out to my old roommate texting her Happy Easter but she ignored it. How do I handle this situation the Gospel way? I want to do whats right. I just can't live with myself knowing this situation is so messy. Its plagued me for 8 months. Thanks so much, Audrey