Zurama

I know exactly how you feel and you are not alone. I wasn't raised LDS, but I converted at the age of 18 and 26 years later I have more questions then answers and I wonder what the Elders who converted me would sayl if they knew how I feel? :)

Judging by your description of the relationship, it's obvious that you don't love her and have no intention of marrying her. Do the decent thing and let her go. Also, let me give you another piece of advice.......stop looking back at that relationship from high school and start looking forward. I've been there. Don't look back, unless you can learn something from it.