Well first off, let me explain about myself. I am 25, single, I have been a member of the church since I was born. I have been inactive for 8 years and I have only gone to church for certain occasions (missionary farewells/homecomings, baby blessings, etc.). There are things that I have done that I already feel bad enough for and have spent plenty of time making myself feel bad for them. I have recently thought about getting back into the church, but I know its going to take some time and A LOT of repenting. So I am hoping to get some advice on what I can do and where I might stand with the church.
Anyway, so onto the good part (actually bad, lol).. So at the point that I stopped going to church was when I was 17 and at that time I lost my virginity to my girlfriend. I then after awhile got into alcohol. It wasnt bad, it was more like an occasional thing and I still do it occasionaly, its not an addiction and it wont be a problem to get off of. I have had numerous partners with relations and some I have actually apologized to because they were only one night stands. But only a few of them. I have never done drugs, or cigarettes and I obviously have never murdered anyone or stolen anything.
There is one thing that has been eating inside and I just cannot stop thinking about it. I am a very good and respectful person. I only mean the best, but like everyone else, I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I just want to live knowing that I am going to a good place when I die. But I just don't know where this will put me. There is this girl that I dated for a little while, she was married about a year or so ago. I had gotten back from a business trip and she had told me that her and her husband were getting a divorce. She asked me to meet up with her to have a talk so I met up with her. We ended up having sex and she spent the night at my place. I didnt think about it, because she said that it was official that they were getting a divorce, but technically they werent divorced.
I feel terrible even thinking about it right now and don't know why I am even putting this on here. I dont know where else to go. They are separated and working through the divorce now. I have even thought about telling the guy and apologizing to him in hopes him and God can forgive me. I have nothing to do with their divorce either. Please give me advice on what I can do. Please do not judge me for my mistake. I want help and I want to be accepted into the church. What do I do?
Any help will be appreciated! Thank you so much and god bless.
- Anonymous -
