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i think it may be psychological. there isnt anything we're doing wrong, and i dont think the spirit is prompting me, it doesnt feel like him. it more an anxiety sort of thing. but maybe it is because he is leaving for college soon, and everytime i feel like were really connecting i sense the inevidibility of hi leaving... but i dont know. im not good at understanding myself >_<

I love my boyfriend very much, but during the times where i should be the happiest, i feel an overwhelming sense of dread and i cant enjoy myself. Why could this be?