I have been lurking here for some time, but havent posted anything until now. I was baptised into the church two months ago and ever since then I have felt so alone. I belong to a small ward in an area where there aren't many mormons, and am a young single adult which there are even fewer of :).
I expected to have to work hard inorder to get into the mormon "culture" and the culture within my ward and have been doing that. When I was investigating the church everyone was nice and helpful, but as soon as I was baptised everyone disapeared and distanced themselves and now I am left on my own trying to figure things out among people that have been members all of their lives and that have known each other for years.
For example, this weekend I'll be going to the temple for the first time. In order to get there I have to travel a few hours and it is in the outside of the city where I am going etc so I am trying to figure out the logistics of it on top of the fact that I will be there for the first time and am freaking out about the actual experience. I dont know how it works in other areas but we have temple days for every ward and ours is this weekend so other people will be going and I have been asking for a ride and for someone to accompany and guide me etc but no one have time or am intrested in helping me.
I feel so lonely and frustrated with the people in my ward, I used to belong to a great charismatic congregation where I really felt like I belonged, and now I get this . The ironic thing is that everyone is so happy and amazed that after two months as a member I still show up for church on Sundays. Im studying so I have to live in this area for a few more years, any encouragement, advice etc? I don't doubt that the church is true I just really feel lonely and dont know if i want to continue to do this.
