DeniseH

Thanks for the welcome! Bytebear, thanks for asking. I learned a lot on the internet. I wasn't really questioning anything about the temple until I saw a 20/20 interview with an LDS, NFL football player. The interviewer asked him about his garments. Husband and I looked at each other and said, "What's that?" I had to find out and thought that was a pretty personal, future expectation not to tell someone about. So when we looked that up it led to learning other things we had no idea about. I'm not really upset about it any longer but don't think I want to go to the temple. That sort of makes it pointless to go back since that's where the real work is done. But yet I feel drawn. lol

I'm a wife and homeschooling Mom of 4. Not sure exactly why I'm here at the forum. Some history: I was baptized along with my husband about 12 yrs ago. Soon after baptism my curiosity got the best of me and I HAD to find out what happens at the temple. I was very surprised by a few things and we felt betrayed. I STILL think we should have been told everything up front. We subsequently had our names removed from the records. I don't think my husband would ever go back. I really enjoyed the culture and the people at our ward. I held them in high esteem and felt them to be some of the nicest people and families I have ever known. I still feel betrayed but I realize it wasn't the people but that it's just the way things are done. In the 10 yrs since I was last there, I've thought of them often. I miss them and would like to hang out with them again even though I don't really believe the gospel at this time. I'm so tempted to go to church and get involved again but don't want to be insincere about testimony/beliefs. I loved Relief Society, Homemaking and Visiting Teaching. I've been reading for a few days and like the forum. Seems there are a lot of nice and interesting people here. Not really sure what I should do. I'll just keep reading and contemplating and surely it will come to me. Right?