Hello all. this is my first post and I am loocking for some help/advice. I am confused. As you can see by my name I am a new convert. I am also newly married as well. I will try to keep it short but I am long winded and prone to details so thanks in advance for reading this.
Short story first. I have been in a long distance relationship (3 years now) with a woman who was raised LDS but has been away from the church for awhile. We were married just over 1 month ago (civilly by her Bishop). As soon as we left where she was living and got back to where I live, she said she thinks she made a mistake in marrying me. She said she loves me more than anyone she ever has, that I am her best friend and she trusts me more than anyone she has ever met but that the spark we had when dating isn't there anymore. When she first told me this, my faith was tested and I almost responded with well then, get out. I tried not to be upset but it was a challenge for me. Before she left she said 90% of her doesn't want to be with me. She went home to visit her daughter, and while she was gone she said 60% of her doesn't want to come back. Again, i almost told her to stay if she doesn't want to be here, I don't want to force anyone to be with me if they don't want to. I received my Patriarchal blessing and it speciffically mentions her and what is required of me is standing by her. So I stopped all thought of letting her go and am basically doing anything and everything she needs in order for her to work things out.
After seeing her regress (stopping daily reading, and all church activities) and hearing her talk about her need for her old Bishop, and needing to get back to her addiction class (at her home), I asked her if she wanted to go back home and work this out. She left a few days ago. We are going to try this again at a distance while she works with her bishop and a psychiatrist (she has many severe issues from previous marriages she thought she had resolved). She still is not 100% sure she wants to be married and cancelled all talk of the temple wedding we were working towards but still tells me how much she loves me, how much she trusts me and how I am her best friend.
Hopefully, you can see why I am confused. Being a new convert doesn't help because most people I know (nonLDS) would tell me to just move on. She has too many issues or doesn't really care for you. I know of her past issues and how she is very messed up inside, but I am trying to stand by her the best I can and be a good husband / Priesthood holder for her. I guess I am just asking, Am I crazy for doing this?
