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I am lucky to have a wonderful relief society president and visiting teachers. I haven't had any LDS friends in a very long time, and I'm grateful for the love and support I receive from these sisters. I draw strength from them. Thank you for your support and kind words, as well. You have really helped me, which is why I started this thread. I know I have a long, hard road ahead of me, but I also know that with the Lord's help, I will make it through, and I will be a better, stronger person because of it.

Thank you so much, Changed. That letter was just what I needed. It made me cry, but also helped me understand that I can be better. I know God has more in store for me. I appreciate all your encouraging words.

Thank you all for your advice and insights. I realize that I made a HUGE mistake 1st by having premarital sex which led to pregnancy, 2nd by marrying a man I knew would not be faithful to me and 3rd by falling away from the church and compromising my standards. I take full responsibility for this. I have repented and I'm trying to get my life back on the right path. He IS a serial cheater both before and after we were married. I convinced myself that once we were married, he would stop. The affair he had with my best friend went on for over a year and took him 2 years to come clean and only because she finally admitted it to me. That affair was 6 years ago and while talking to our bishop, he said it's been 2 years since he was unfaithful so I know there have been others since that one. He tells me he's changed and that he only wants me but I don't believe him since he's said this numerous times before. Like I said, I have prayed alot about what I should do and I think in order for me to be the person I want to be, I need to start over without him. I will take care of my daughter and try to be a good example to her.

I need some advice. I was born and raised in the church, but when I was in high school, I fell in love with a non-member. I told him I would not marry outside of the temple and he took the lessons and was baptized. However,we ended up getting pregnant our senior year and had our son at 18. He was unfaithful to me throughout our dating years, but I still married him thinking he would change and that we would get back into the church and get sealed in the temple. Over the years, we have gone in and out of being active and eventually stopped going altogether. We were living a party life style. Six years ago, he had an affair with my best friend, and I forgave him. About a year ago, our 13 year old daughter became good friends with a bishop's daughter and began going to church and mutual with her. She was such a great example to me that I have become active and have confessed some things to my bishop. I was disfellowshipped, but will receive full membership in a few months. I have been going to all my church meetings, reading my scriptures, praying, paying tithing, etc... My husband has been attending sacrament meeting, but he does not want to live the gospel fully. He thinks I should compromise and he believes it's ok to ride 4 wheelers on Sunday and drink beer with his friends. He thinks I'm being unfair to expect him to change now after all these years. A couple of months ago, I was checking our phone records (I do this because I don't trust him) and I saw that he's been texting a girl whom he had cheated on me with right before we were married. So I moved in with my sister. I'm planning on filing for divorce, but he is telling me how he can't live without me and even my parents are saying that I shouldn't leave because of our daughter. They defend him by saying he wasn't raised the same way I was and that I need to be patient with him. Our bishop recommended marriage counseling, but he won't go. I have prayed about this and I feel that divorce is the answer. Any thoughts on what I should do?