Hello I am new here but I am looking for some answers and support if possible. I will give you a little backstory. I have twin boys who will be two in September and I have been with the boys father in a "living togethor" situation for over three years. We got engaged last Decemeber and were married in the ward chapel last Saturday, everything went great and I was feeling happier than ever. I have been investigating the church for a good four almost five months. The missionaries were visiting us twice a week for quite a while, now once a week. My huband was a convert into church when he was a child but had gotten away from the church. Last night I had my baptism interview and it did not go well. The missonaries had showed me the questions I would be asked on a number of occasions always telling me that I didn't have to answer the questions to them. I thought great because everything on the list I could answer in an appropirate way except one. I didn't really think about the questions too much becuase it was something that happend quite a while ago and I felt that I had repented. The question is a very sensitive and very emontional subject with me and I can't even speak about it without crying my eyes out. I thought I could bring it up in the inteview and things would be ok, not so much. The missionary who interviewed me seemed just as nervous as me and things were not good. When I answered the question it went from bad to worse, lots of akwardness, not knowing what to say. I could tell he was trying to make me feel better, by saying "I'm sorry this has never happened to me before." I took thast as meaning I was a horrible person if it had never happened to him before until I found out it was only his second interview, then I felt bad for both of us. Maybe i just feel horrible about myself. He then asked what the missionaries had say about my answer to this question and I had never told them about it because I didn't feel like I had to share something that personal with them, and that I wanted to keep it private. Needless to say I left the church crying and I am supposed to go back tonight to speak to someone else about this "in detail." I am so scared. I feel pretty bad about myself, dissapointed, and not worthy. I know I shouldn't but I do. I hope I am not turned away from the church. I have worked so hard and was feeling so good. I guess we will see tonight.