Hello everyone. I need some advice, or something, about my mission. I believe that God helps us through other people, so here I am!
I left to the MTC on Dec. 8th 2010. I was there for 10 days, all the while dealing with severe depression and anxiety, as well as home-sickness. With the advice from the Pres. and other leaders at the MTC, I was released with a medical release.
Things didn't get better when I got home, and I started meeting with LDS mission dept counseling. Throughout that time I decided to start taking medicine for my depression. I had dealt with severe depression during my teen years and I am thinking I never got rid of it before, just sorta put it in the back of my head and was always just "blah" with life. The medication has helped me feel happy and normal and able to feel like living! I am positive it was chemicals inside my head making me like that.
Anyway, I have now been home since Dec 2010. I am 21 years old, and I am lost. I want to go back on my mission. But I have fears of those feelings returning that I had at the MTC and fear that I am too old. I know the old saying, "feel the fear and do it anyway" but somethings need to be pondered about and seriously thought over. I have a desire to serve the Lord. I am just trying to figure out what to do. If I should serve a mission or if I shouldn't.
Does anyone have advice or personal experiences they could share to help me? Thank you so much...
