mumspreciousones

Thank you for all the replies and support. I am on a path of learning what I need to know and have a lovely person helping me now. I am researching and finding out more about these issues and taking them to prayer. As I am things are becoming clearer and I am becoming more settled within my self. It will take a while, but I feel confident I will get there. Went to Church and it was a wonderful experience and I will continue and pray and Im sure I will sort these things out with help and the Lord. Blessings to you all :)

HI Everyone, I am from a small town, am Baptised and Sealed in the Temple to my husband (as a convert about 4 years ago) and have a nearly 8 year old son. Im having trouble with my testimony and have actually been considering becoming a Catholic. There are some things in the Church that I just cannot get/accept/live with - although I love my branch and the people there as my family. I have spoken to people about my concerns but I havent had anything to relieve my feelings about them. Also my husband is less active although he believes in the Church, and as such I am having a hard job instilling into my son the gospel, and it doesnt help that I have my own doubts. How can I teach him something Im not sure about myself. I have a testimony of the priesthood definitely, and I believe in God and Jesus without a doubt - and maybe its due to things that I have heard, but I cannot believe that polygamy was or is right, and in our branch it is spoken of how in the eternities men will have more than one wife and I cannot accept or agree with this. There is also the whole God was as man is.... and that God is of flesh and bone that I have trouble with. And the idea we can become as Gods. It all is just unbelievable to me and therefore I am confused and upset to say the least. I have tried to believe it all, as what do I know and God knows all and I certainly do not however I feel really really awful about this and have prayed and pondered and still cannot believe it. As a side note I was baptized after about 3 weeks first meeting with the Missionaries and I didnt know any of this when joining. I have been praying and praying about this, however so far I am just as confused about it all as ever. I have been looking into the Catholic Church for different reasons but find many of the areas that I have trouble with in the LDS Church I feel comfortable with in the Catholic Church. I love my President dearly and feel unable to speak to him about this and as we live a way away from the rest of the members we do not have the regular contact other than church on a Sunday, which my son and I attend, while my husband works. I dont feel able to support my son spiritually without my husbands help and feel I need a community in our town that can help me. Obviously very confused and in need or prayers and help. If anyone can help me with any of this please feel free to advise. Please no telling me off though as Im dealing with enough of that in my own head