I'm not bashing anyone with my questions. The kinds of questions I'm asking are things I haven't understood in church, questions about what I've read in the book of Mormon, questions about how getting baptized affects day to day life, questions about things said by the prophets in the last 50 years or so and more detailed questions about the basic lessons. Also, just having them share gospel stories or talks helps a lot. The 3 hours of church can be overwhelming and its difficult not having anyone I can talk to about what's going on there. It's certainly not just "hanging out" One of my friends also suggested I listen as they teach others and I've brought up that idea but they've never invited me to come along.
I try to research my questions online, but there's often too much info on lds.org or not enough. When I do general searches I also get too much extra info. They also seemed to say that I should just do it then even if she's firmly against it at that point it would be too late.
Without going into too much detail me getting baptized would be very difficult for her and cause a lot of problems right now. Hopefully in a few months she'll be better and it won't be an issue. By then I'm not sure if I can continue learning everything on my own or if I'll want to do this without some kind of help.
In short, I feel like I need guidance and just maintenance with what I've learned already, but they're saying "get baptized or we will not help you anymore"