Hello! Today I decided to write here because I don't know what I can do now, how I should act. I really need some advice from you. I need some support.
Last year I was classic member of the church. I attended it every Sunday, kept commandments, studied Scriptures and so on but then there was a change. As I live in Ukraine, there are few members and there were nobody of my age. If my outside the church friends had found out about my religion, they would have quitted even talking to me. So as they liked drinking, smoking and other bad stuff, I stopped hanging out with them. I needed some true friends and I hadn't. And then there in church I found some of my age to make friends. I helped them to believe in the truth of the church and everything was OK. But after a while, they stopped to believe and i followed them. Currently I started using bad language, receiving bad marks at school (I used to be an A student ), drinking a little and doing other not good things. Now I see they are not good for me. My life has been changed for the worse and I don't want to live that way. On the other hand, I don't know how I can change for the better. Now it seems to be ridiculous going to the church as nobody does. Sometimes I remembered how happy I was, I had all I wanted and I rejected it without realizing what I was doing. Also there in our branch are many people who attend church because they have money from church. There are many hypocrits in our branch. If I start to believe now again, I will be forced to forget the friends I have so then I will be alone at all, There are many problems in my life and I don't know how to get rid of them. i am on computer all the time 'cause life seems to be boring for me. I waste my time and I hate myself becouse of it. So what can I do? What choice should I make? Please advice me something 'cause I'm in despair. Thanks in advance and sorry for my mistakes, I hope you'll understand me.
