raynetta66

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Thank you Concerned. I am in no way justifying my infidelity, that was my doing and only mine. I know in my heart that Satan used my depression over my marriage and my loneliness to tempt me, and I was too weak to withstand it. I am praying day and night until I see my Bishop. I did not partake of the Sacrament today and will not until I can do so worthily. I am reading all about repentance and have felt an overwhelming sense of love from my Heavenly Father. Thank you all for your words of advice and encouragement. It has truly helped me feel great love and kindness!

Thanks everyone for the words of advice and encouragement. Funkytown, you are right. We were actually separated for 5 years, and reunited for 11, those 11 years have been the sexless one. I don't condone my affair, but I did have a lot of factors that I feel caused me to weaken to the temptation. My husband and I are more housemates than spouses. I don't want my kids to think that my marriage is a normal one, nor do I want them to think that turning to an affair is right either. Thank you everyone.

I am an endowed married LDS woman. I've been married to my husband for 24 years and we have three kids. I serve in the Primary, and go to church every Sunday. My husband and I were separated for five years 10 years ago, and when he asked me to come back, I did because I felt that I would regret it if I didn't try one more time to make it work. I also felt that my kids needed both of their parents. But, I think those five years did us in. We've both been miserable, and we haven't had sex since before our separation. I could blame him, but that wouldn't be fair. We both made mistakes in our marriage and I am the one that cheated. My affair was a one time thing. It is over. He was a friend of mine, and things got out of control and I broke my temple covenants. There is NO way that I will fall again because I've stopped communication with him. I feel so remorseful and guilty that I can't even seem to function without breaking out in tears. I haven't told my husband yet, because I just can't right now. Every time I try, I burst into tears and can't. I have every intention of going and starting the repentance process. I even called and made an appointment with my bishop, but he's out of town for the next two weeks. I have prayed night and day to my Heavenly Father since my affair, and I have felt an overpowering amount of love from Heavenly Father. I am willing to accept whatever my punishment is. I will NOT partake of the Sacrament until I discuss this with my Bishop. I have also stopped wearing my garments. I also intend to surrender my temple recommend when I meet with my Bishop in a few weeks. But, I need some advice. 1. Even though I have stopped, should I stop wearing my garments until I see my Bishop? 2. Will I have to go to a stake court, or will this be a bishop's court? 3. What happens to my temple sealing and my children born in the covenant? 4. What can I do in the two weeks before I see my Bishop to help me prepare for this spiritually? I appreciate any advice that you can give me. I just feel so horrible and full of guilt and remorse. I can't stop crying and I just wish my Bishop was in town now so I can confess this and start the repentance process.