Hello, I was wondering if I could borrow some advice :) And I promise if it pays off I will give some back!!!!
Ok, my Husband is Bishop, has been for nearly a year. We have three small children.........life's hectic! This year child number two was diagnosed with Autism :'(
I adore child number two like no other, he's beautiful and has a wonderful way of interpreting the world around him. However things are a little difficult with him, social settings on any kind have always been a trial. I avoided going to the doctors as I don't want to be loaded up with drugs >:-/ but I'm pretty sure I may have been battling depression these last few months.
My husband has been amazing and has literally kicked me out of bed three mornings a week to go for a jog, and made it possible for me to have more 'break' times. Which has really helped during the week. I feel I have a little system going that works.
However it always seems to come to an abrupt halt come Sunday. In short I dislike Sundays very much. Sacrament is stressful, I always end up taking the children out and making a scene, that's if we even make it to the beginning! I normally will end up taking them to nursery where they can play and I can try and catch bits of the talks through the noise! I really want to give scarement a shot every week as the oldest child needs to learn to be there. Not that Sacrament=playtime.
I've also been feeling like there is utterly no point in being there, I feel like I get nothing out of church bar stress, and the oldest child could just go with Dad and sit and play nicely, to put it bluntly I've lost all enthusiasm when it comes to the church
Please don't misunderstand me, I do believe it's true and I know what I should be doing, I just feel tired!
I'm sure I am not the first member who has felt this way, so PLEASE if anyone has any advice to kick start my Gospel self it would be gratefully apprieciated! I need to start gettings a little positive thought going rather than the negative dread I feel as Sunday approaches! More than anything, for my children to see their mother being a good example I need to be better about how I feel about my beliefs.
Thankyou in advance for any advice :)
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