SoVerySorry

This is the crux of my problem. I have no problem with whatever discipline is handed down to me by the bishop. I'd have already confessed if it weren't for my wife and kids. But, I'm certain that my wife will leave me if she finds out. I won't go into reasons why, but she will. I guess that'll be my punishment for my sins, losing my wife and the trust of my children. I'm honestly still debating what I want to do. Keep my wife and kids, or confess and lose them. I know this sounds like trying to take the easy way out, but is telling my wife part of the confession?

I really could use some advice. My story is quite sad and pathetic. I've been clean for 1 year, but before then I had dabbled in pornography off and on for a few years. I also got a happy ending at a massage parlor. I won't get into specifics, but I get massages all of the time from different places, never with any sexual intention. This one event happened at a new parlor and I haven't gotten a massage since. Just disgusted with myself for letting that happen and me not stopping it (didn't ask for it). My question is, I have no problem confessing to the bishop, but have not done so because I'm terrified he will make me tell my wife. I know she'll divorce me, or at least lose all confidence in me if she finds out. I have kids too. Like I've said, I've been clean for over a year, and really am a new man after leaving all that filth behind. I'm reading scriptures every day, praying, doing FHE, and trying my best to be a great husband and father. What should I do? In cases like this would the bishop make me tell my wife? I honestly don't know if I'd be able to do that. Please help, I have thought about this every single day. I know the easy answer is tell your wife and bishop, but I honestly am scared to death of breaking up my family over this.