I really need some advice on worthness and what I should do in my situation.
A year ago I broke the law of chasity and I had sex during the summer of 2011. It took me awhile to get the courage to talk to my bishop, especially since he is a close family friend. I never told him that I had problems before I had sex with masturbation but finally around January 2012 I was able to talk to my bishop about the having sex part and we began meeting about how to correct the situation and gain repentance. Around march or so we stopped meeting because we both felt the situation had been dealt and resolved with.
This summer however I feel like I have made some serious transgressions that need to be addressed and don't know what to do. I made the mistake of smoking marijuana with a friend near the end of june and than I feel the depression of that and guilt made me make some other poor choices. I went onto drink and get drunk and smoke marijuana some more times and I had oral sex with a boy, and personal masturbation issues resurfaced.
I have a history of serious depression issues which is what contributed to the first time I had sex, was issues relating to that and my home bishop knew some of my depression issues before when we began meeting. I have gone of my medication the past few months without anyone knowing so, and I know I've been feeling really low and in those moments I do things that are self destructive.
I don't know what to do. I'm about to start school this fall at a church school and I want to tell my new bishop about it but I don't know what I should tell him. Should I tell him about my first transgression, even though I already talked about it with my home ward bishop and will he tell my home ward bishop? Do I need to tell my school bishop that I broke the law of chasity and word of wisdom or do I need to go into more detail about what I exactly did or did not do? I never thought that not telling my home ward bishop about my masturbation issues prior to the first incident was dishonest because I didn't realize it needed to be addressed but I'm beginning to feel like it should have been addressed. I don't know what to do or how to handle this situation.
I'm sure that confessing to the full extent of my sins will lead to some sort of disciplinary action since they are so severe and happened more than once. I would not be surprised if it meant I could not partake of the sacrament for a period of time. But I'm not sure how to deal with that. I'll be in a new school as a freshman and people in my school ward I'm sure will notice that I can't take the sacrament and I don't know how to handle that judgement. Any suggestions on how to handle that? How should I approach my school bishop when I do decided to tell him?
I apologize for all the questions but this is really important if you guys could help me answer all of the things in this post. I feel really lost and don't know what to do.
